Hasn't enough been done already?

I would not boil my friendships down to being transactional or beneficial, nor do I think I treat anyone like a "commodity." Especially given that I was concerned I was not a good enough friend from the beginning. I do care about my friends, I was hoping that perspective was not lost.

They were my friend and one that I considered close. They may think I hold some ill will towards them or that i hate them, but I do not. I did not do what I did out of hate. I was frustrated by the way I was treated. I did not burn the bridge, I shook it. However, I did it the wrong way.

Nothing you can really do if your intentions are misconstrued or if there are assumptions made, which is why I don't make assumptions, and it was messier given irl friends were involved. I understand where they were coming from and I don't care if they even believe my apology. I meant every word

I know what I did was shitty. I wasn't going to double down or lie. I just wanted communication. There was so much uncertainty, and I just wanted everything to be okay. When the time came for a crucial conversation, I thought it was going somewhere, but it was understandably emotionally charged.