Work under different premises. Making room for the social dimensions of my profession. The pursuit of my values is hindered by the system I work in.

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I don't want pity. I don't want people who are compassionate and tell me how unbearable all of this sounds. I want comrades, I need combatants who equally long for examining the wrongdoings, the wicked management and the crushing forces we are imprisoned in.

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My childhood hobby became my shield. My pen became my sword. My past guides my future. And the undead knights became doctors, the werewolves became patients.

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Usually it is me who steps out of the doctor’s office to break this kind of news. Usually I don’t cry. To be really honest, I usually feel very unattached to the whole situation.

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The feeling of restlessness is very unpleasant. I feel like although I am at home, I still don't have full agency, I lack control over my life.

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I have a colleague who got a chronic disease. He may only work 6h per day but instead of giving him less work, they just give him the same work everyone else needs to do in8h

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These patients really don't see us as people but only as their service. In their heads, we're just there for them.

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But fatigue is no reason to go on sick leave, everyone is drained. We all keep compensating for our collective sleep deprivation, our deprivation of sharp thinking.

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It's like taking them by the hand and showing them my world. Look, that's what I do everyday. That's how your body works. This is my world. I want you to understand it.

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I always thought that the goal of an academic career would be to learn critical thinking. (...) I found out that this is only partially what's desired and accepted in the real world.

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If I am subject to my conscience, it is me who will fix the holes. If I am held hostage by my conscience, I will sacrifice myself for their understaffed, broken system.

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I swing like a pendulum between hating the system and my employer — and hating the very people I am supposed to care for. When everyday work is nothing but stress, there is no room left for empathy.

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Healthcare is oftentimes not so much health and care for the ones providing it. I am a resident, formerly internal medicine, currently anesthesiology.