Drowning_fish
drowning-fish.bsky.social
Drowning_fish
@drowning-fish.bsky.social
Chinese/English 日记本
我不需要很多很多爱
我只需要很多很多钱
December 21, 2024 at 5:38 AM
今年也算是三过家门而不入了。加起来赖在杭州大半个月,两次在亲人和外婆打电话说我不回去的时候愧疚大哭。对不起啊真的对不起。我不知道怎么面对你们的或关心或期待,我该如何开口不要再逼我了你们已经成为我抑郁的大半压力来源?我是你们带大的孩子,你们给予期望的,你们重金培养的。到头来,这份爱已经沉重到我根本偿还不起。我能做什么呢?我想要逃,逃去很远的地方再也不回来,我满足不了任何人的期待,包括我自己的在内。
December 19, 2024 at 9:40 AM
All I want is finding my own tribe.
December 18, 2024 at 11:36 AM
Being financially independent is the only solution we always know that.
December 18, 2024 at 9:35 AM
How low, how low can I go?
How low, how low can I go, honey?
How long till I can laugh about it all?
How do I say what I want to say out loud?
December 17, 2024 at 6:01 PM
I don’t know how to explain… I totally understand that I have a life that is privileged to an extent that I should not complain. But what to say? I resonate with those small town dreams, resonate with those embarrassing moments created by poverty… my hometown is a place where females are only things
December 17, 2024 at 5:40 PM
December 17, 2024 at 10:22 AM
Reposted by Drowning_fish
I have poor circulation so I bought USB heated gloves, which means that I am wearing fingerless gloves with cords coming out of them. It's giving 90s cyberpunk hacker.
December 15, 2024 at 7:33 PM
December 14, 2024 at 12:48 PM
Pain is temporary, art is forever… is that ever true?
December 7, 2024 at 6:43 AM
Not sure what I could say, not sure what I should share, Leetcode day1 brings back all the anxiety…
December 6, 2024 at 5:10 PM
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Step 1: Companies spend 10 years using leetcode to hire engineers who can reverse binary trees but not code

Step 2: They had to adapt and overhire bc these folks can’t code for shit

Step 3: Leetcoders replaced by AI who also cant code for shit but is infinitely better at reversing binary trees
November 30, 2024 at 1:26 AM
That’s where my dream starts… please I sincerely love this university,
December 6, 2024 at 2:51 PM
He gives everything he can give out, and he tries his best to satisfy everyone‘s needs. 有时候我真的,愧疚,感激,混杂着爱,这样想着他流下眼泪。
December 4, 2024 at 4:42 PM
I did meet great people throughout this journey… not only the band.
December 4, 2024 at 3:48 PM
If there’s one day you convince me life is golden it would be:
December 4, 2024 at 3:47 PM
Feeling much better when I came back… maybe it’s because the moment I saw the orange “Life is Golden” on the backdrop, maybe it’s because Hong Kong has always been a place I dreamed about. Six months ago in Shanghai, I saw Suede and get a visa for Hong Kong, Six months later I’m in Hong Kong
December 3, 2024 at 10:58 AM
在hk这个不足十平方米的小房间里…我写下这一年最多的文字。
December 1, 2024 at 11:33 PM
I’m glad that the memory of a fish is only 7 seconds so I don’t ruminate about what happened😭
December 1, 2024 at 8:39 PM
睡不着,听点意外录下来的录音。
December 1, 2024 at 8:10 PM
I would cry so many times for Life is golden……😭 I hope they release the new cover image.
December 1, 2024 at 7:48 PM
Next stop of my life is to escape.
December 1, 2024 at 7:37 PM
I hope we don’t bothered you too much… well even though I thought that it would be better if we have a more formal ending for this six month trip…. But the end of this trip will be the beginning of next one.❤️
December 1, 2024 at 4:43 PM
Where would I go and what could I say?
December 1, 2024 at 3:19 AM
Feeling a little bit lost and empty, perhaps because this is my last Suede show in maybe like 2 years, after seeing them 6 times during the past six months. For me, this is an experience that I never expected, Suede seems like a band that’s very far away,…
November 30, 2024 at 8:49 PM