have you gone through a time of ssswallaʊwing where everything was. overhwhelming

i'm unwell

obviously this is about changbin

oh to be able to afford healthcare

oh to be able to have lucid dreams again

having a migraine AND bad dreams?? should be a crime

that's what i get for playing around changing the lyrics to gospel songs so they be about changbin's ass. like i did this to myself. i made me unsafe. chile

and then i woke up triggered lmfao

and it was a very big deal that i left my spot to go do that apparently

it was choir practice and my dad was leading take me to the king and was super hesitant about it for some reason (which is totally ooc for him) so i abandoned my spot in the choir to go coach him 😭😭😭 and work on the vocal melody bc i ain't like how he did it

and then the dream changed and i was in the first church we went to except it wasn't actually that church, it just looked like it

plus also i gotta lotta religious trauma so idk where that puts us 😳

and i was like well here's the thing. i don't wanna sing gospel music all the time, i wanna sing gospel AND secular music 😳 also my voice changed when i got sick, i don't sound the way i used to

he apparently put in a good word for me (bro you're the music minister, who you gon put in a good word to) so i could be in the choir??? and a soloist???

one of them apparently became the music minister at a local church (and he not not even one of the ones who actually became a music minister irl 😭😭😭)

lskfkekkddk did not realize you used this tag but

the way y'all use it, every fucked up character is an unreliable narrator. so basically allum 💀