I know I can do better and will try and strive to be better. But man is it hard when I have to be afraid while walking on this tightrope between being too unhinged and being socially aware all the time without being able to be myself.

Shit's fucking stupid and exhausting....

End of rant.

The negative memories and experiences exasperate themselves more than the positives, nullifying the importance of latter. And since I latch too easily onto the negative experiences, they nullify my chances of being more open and be myself without making accidents that rub on others in a bad way.

An argument that turned awful because you didn't get your point across? Grudge.

A moment where you felt embarrassed and like you became the laughing stock? Grudge.

A discussion that reminded how you're not knowledgeable enough about things and come off as a fool? Grudge.

All useless grudges(TM)!

That's my cue! For the ❤️ dergs!