weirdest/most difficult part is that this friend, we back then agreed to never speak about that era again... we almost talked about it once or twice since, but we're both just, idk, living as if it didn't happen. maybe if i had actually kissed him it'd be different. who knows.

eventually ended up coerced by another boy(friend) and developed a backwards attachment/attraction to both and tbh still to this day haven't figured it all out but heres more vent drawings from sketchbooks in hs about it

its his fault for "raping" me in hs so much to the point i started liking it and wanting it (vent drawing from hs sketchbook, same ppl diff ocs)