thank you. i don't really know how you managed to find this post but it's a bit comforting to know there's someone that kinda share that kind of experience. thanks for the offer, i'll def think about it since this is still quite the sensitive topic for me so not sure if i wanna talk abt it rn iykwim

my friends keep telling me im not fat n shit but is that true or are they just speaking out of consideration and pity? Do they feel inconvenienced by me crashing out now and then about this? i don't think i will ever know and honestly am scared to find out

i feel like a fat fuck everyday the one time pe teach called me fattie i genuinely felt like killing myself for a solid 10 seconds bro it was baddd

Not even ed or anything i don't have a problem with eating its a deliberate choice and i still eat what i like. I just am much more comfortable with skipping meals now

I can't even look at photos with me in it without analyzing everything about my appearance anymore. I can't talk about this to anyone at least not until next year (or maybe when i'm pissed drunk) But fuck god this plus just other stuff in life .... feel the need to take a swan dive at any moment