And that's where the dream ended. Another dove dream hehehe

About halfway there he got a call from someone telling him that the thing we were going there for was no longer there, and we debated whether or not we should head back or stay in an inn for the night

Ooc for him I think, but it made me very happy !

(Censoring his name bc I don't want this coming up in search results lol)

If I choose to deactivate this account again you can find me on the other site (@/d0vedream) and tumblr: www.tumblr.com/dove-dream (I haven't posted there yet but I will eventually)

Why would he like me romantically when no one else does? Why should I keep imagining a relationship that's likely to either fail or never start in the first place...?

Yeah. yeah

I guess I don't like realising I'm just another ape. That or I crave someone truly caring about me and actively showing it, even if their methods aren't particularly 'correct' or moral

I do have issues with the rest of the au as well, but this is the part I feel most strongly about in a negative way

My morals, feelings and the truth are in conflict with each other about this. I dont like that I'm given relief through something that's, in my opinion, so wrong. So illogical.

So why would I imagine any of this, and why would this scenario make me feel better if I do not wish any ill will on him? Is this how I truly feel? Even though I know for a fact this isn't a logical stance at all

I find a lot of relief in this au, but it feels wrong to admit as the situation with that friend was very complicated, I've thought about it a lot over the years I don't think anyone was in the wrong, and I certainly can't bring myself to hate him

He would go so far as finding one of my ex friends, who hurt me a lot, and threaten him. Maybe he would even try to ruin his life