its just. im trapped. again. this time theres no out. i just have to make sure history doesnt repeat but i have a poor track record of that

i dont blame her (hindsight and just self reflection tells me that its for the greater good for her mental and physical health) i just miss her and miss talking to her and relearning life without her has been. kinda miserable

and you know i cant really say This on twitter because i dont want to put any pressure or anything. idk if she follows me or not. probably not. ive been trying not to focus on the hurt but its always here and its not leaving and im very scared