My aunt's not taking this seriously at all, I'm not sure if she's trying to be strong or if she's enjoying this but there's no sense of urgency with her
I don't think she wants grandma to survive this

I know that doesn't make any sense, I just don't know what else to do, I really don't know what to do
I just want everything to stop for a little bit

I feel so stuck. everytime I think things are getting better, they get worse, I don't understand how I can be wrong every single time with these things, I've even tried to reverse it by saying things will get worse so that maybe things would get better but that doesn't work either

It's just one thing after another, and idk where to go for support.
I don't know how much more anyone can take of me having bad days, idk if they're tired of me or if I'm effecting their mood with all of this

Ok...

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