I just want the joy back haha. Ung time na nageenjoy pa ko sa craft ko, hindi ung mas iniisip ko ung pagiging competitive and all other things like bebenta ba or makakabenta ba.

makes me feel like all of it was just wasted. Being creative was my biggest pride and joy, I just want it back but sobrang hirap.

sarili ko sa ganitong trabaho at sistema. I know lots of people have it worse than me, pero minsan the thought of us just doing all this for survival really just fuck me up.

Work is just supposed to be work i know. But as an artist who devoted most of my life as a kid just to learn the craft-

Working remotely sa bahay, morning shift, + good pay is such a great combo.

But the amount of emotional and mental torture I get everyday just to put up with the standards of the work is way too much. Haha i feel bad that i may lose those perks of work but also parang gusto ko rin palayain ung-

Tru chz