sylvie 🎀
@diaryoncomputer.bsky.social
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✧ 18+/vent/alt account
✧ my main is @a.girlypop.baby
✧ minors/no age in bio = block
✧ taken & monogamous
✧ 18+/vent/alt account
✧ my main is @a.girlypop.baby
✧ minors/no age in bio = block
✧ taken & monogamous
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sylvie 🎀
@diaryoncomputer.bsky.social
· Jun 3
hiii welcome to my diary! ₊˚⊹✧
ⓘ reposts of my posts are typically okay, just use ur judgement
ⓘ this account will have some nsfw & kink on it
ⓘ if at any time u want to unfollow, please feel free to! u don't have to stay following just bc u followed at one point
ⓘ don't flirt with me. i'm taken.
ⓘ reposts of my posts are typically okay, just use ur judgement
ⓘ this account will have some nsfw & kink on it
ⓘ if at any time u want to unfollow, please feel free to! u don't have to stay following just bc u followed at one point
ⓘ don't flirt with me. i'm taken.
im trying really hard not to be dramatic but i kinda feel like i lost a safe space recently and it makes me really sad
December 10, 2025 at 9:51 PM
im trying really hard not to be dramatic but i kinda feel like i lost a safe space recently and it makes me really sad
how it feels when my abuser walks towards me and says he has things to atone for
a close up of a cartoon character 's face with a hand on his forehead .
ALT: a close up of a cartoon character 's face with a hand on his forehead .
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December 10, 2025 at 4:05 AM
how it feels when my abuser walks towards me and says he has things to atone for
im really feeling like i dont deserve anything good in my life and im not worth it to anyone. ive already been so depressed lately and now this feeling is dragging me even lower. genuinely im starting to just want to disappear.
December 10, 2025 at 1:50 AM
im really feeling like i dont deserve anything good in my life and im not worth it to anyone. ive already been so depressed lately and now this feeling is dragging me even lower. genuinely im starting to just want to disappear.
what if i just walked into the ocean and let the sea claim me
December 9, 2025 at 7:54 AM
what if i just walked into the ocean and let the sea claim me
im gonna throw up actually
December 9, 2025 at 7:47 AM
im gonna throw up actually
when it's supposed to be a relaxing beach trip but you get [redacted] instead 👍🏼
December 9, 2025 at 7:46 AM
when it's supposed to be a relaxing beach trip but you get [redacted] instead 👍🏼
this also sucks because it feels like when i do talk about it a little bit people don't really care? because they don't know how bad it is so why would they i guess :/
my living situation sucks a lot but its also so lonely. theres a few ppl who know whats going on but not any details. i dont wanna dump all that anyone so i keep it all to myself. i dont even tell lance everything. it just feels incredibly isolating that no one knows the extent of what i go through
December 9, 2025 at 2:02 AM
this also sucks because it feels like when i do talk about it a little bit people don't really care? because they don't know how bad it is so why would they i guess :/
my living situation sucks a lot but its also so lonely. theres a few ppl who know whats going on but not any details. i dont wanna dump all that anyone so i keep it all to myself. i dont even tell lance everything. it just feels incredibly isolating that no one knows the extent of what i go through
December 9, 2025 at 1:52 AM
my living situation sucks a lot but its also so lonely. theres a few ppl who know whats going on but not any details. i dont wanna dump all that anyone so i keep it all to myself. i dont even tell lance everything. it just feels incredibly isolating that no one knows the extent of what i go through
i know there's good in my life and hope for the future but unfortunately i live in the torture labyrinth
December 8, 2025 at 8:10 AM
i know there's good in my life and hope for the future but unfortunately i live in the torture labyrinth
also shoutout to lance for already planning on helping me find a trauma therapist i can see asap once i move there
all that is to say i am going to need SO much therapy when i move to canada
December 8, 2025 at 1:04 AM
also shoutout to lance for already planning on helping me find a trauma therapist i can see asap once i move there
all that is to say i am going to need SO much therapy when i move to canada
December 8, 2025 at 1:01 AM
all that is to say i am going to need SO much therapy when i move to canada
sometimes i can forget what a truly fucked up situation i live in but then other times it really hits me and it gets so overwhelming and i have to try so hard to supress everything bc i think if i truly acknowledged it i would end up sinking into a pit of despair i might never come back out of 🫠
December 8, 2025 at 1:00 AM
sometimes i can forget what a truly fucked up situation i live in but then other times it really hits me and it gets so overwhelming and i have to try so hard to supress everything bc i think if i truly acknowledged it i would end up sinking into a pit of despair i might never come back out of 🫠
i miss getting high so bad, i wish weed didn't give me anxiety now :(
December 7, 2025 at 11:02 PM
i miss getting high so bad, i wish weed didn't give me anxiety now :(
not that im any of these things yet but it's crazy to think i will be soon, yk? like im engaged and talking about the future with the person i love and it's so unbelievable to me still. like tbh i don't really believe in any of it 100% because i feel like it's too good to be true, especially for me
i never thought i'd get married and i never thought i'd want a child and i never thought i'd leave america or move away from it and i NEVER thought i'd be in anything other than an abusive relationship for the rest of my life. it's truly crazy how much my life has changed and is continuing to change
December 7, 2025 at 9:14 AM
not that im any of these things yet but it's crazy to think i will be soon, yk? like im engaged and talking about the future with the person i love and it's so unbelievable to me still. like tbh i don't really believe in any of it 100% because i feel like it's too good to be true, especially for me
i never thought i'd get married and i never thought i'd want a child and i never thought i'd leave america or move away from it and i NEVER thought i'd be in anything other than an abusive relationship for the rest of my life. it's truly crazy how much my life has changed and is continuing to change
December 7, 2025 at 8:57 AM
i never thought i'd get married and i never thought i'd want a child and i never thought i'd leave america or move away from it and i NEVER thought i'd be in anything other than an abusive relationship for the rest of my life. it's truly crazy how much my life has changed and is continuing to change
having baby fever so bad i made a pinterest board about it 😮💨
December 7, 2025 at 5:06 AM
having baby fever so bad i made a pinterest board about it 😮💨
johnny silverhand......... i'd let him do foul things to me with that silver hand of his
a yellow smiley face with its eyes closed and its tongue sticking out .
Alt: lip bite emoji
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December 6, 2025 at 9:36 PM
johnny silverhand......... i'd let him do foul things to me with that silver hand of his
Reposted by sylvie 🎀
lance called me their little velcro baby and that's so accurate to how clingy i am lmao
December 6, 2025 at 7:22 AM
lance called me their little velcro baby and that's so accurate to how clingy i am lmao
got invited to playtest a self care app where you do self care tasks to make your blood taste better for your vampire boyfriend and omg fgshsgshsjkl
December 6, 2025 at 3:44 AM
got invited to playtest a self care app where you do self care tasks to make your blood taste better for your vampire boyfriend and omg fgshsgshsjkl
fingers in my mouth..................
December 5, 2025 at 2:30 AM
fingers in my mouth..................
changed my handle on here until the custom handles work again 🥀
December 4, 2025 at 11:25 PM
changed my handle on here until the custom handles work again 🥀
thinking about the cute dental assistant with piercings and tattoos who told me to open my mouth and put his fingers in there
December 4, 2025 at 11:14 PM
thinking about the cute dental assistant with piercings and tattoos who told me to open my mouth and put his fingers in there
oh ive gone completely insane about [redacted]. i was blaming [redacted] but that can't be true anymore. i need to get [redacted] RIGHT NOW AAAAAAAAA
December 3, 2025 at 7:38 AM
oh ive gone completely insane about [redacted]. i was blaming [redacted] but that can't be true anymore. i need to get [redacted] RIGHT NOW AAAAAAAAA
it's rly hard to tell myself im being irrational when i have like actual numbers and repeated evidence to prove my current feelings. my period probably isnt helping but im genuinely about to cry over social media and how fucking stupid and embarrassing is that. maybe im not cut out for being on here
December 1, 2025 at 9:51 PM
it's rly hard to tell myself im being irrational when i have like actual numbers and repeated evidence to prove my current feelings. my period probably isnt helping but im genuinely about to cry over social media and how fucking stupid and embarrassing is that. maybe im not cut out for being on here