And to those who have been effected badly. Im sorry you had to go through this. I hope you are doing okay, and doing your own healing. Remember to take your time, and take care of yourself. I care about you. And many others care about you too. It may be a rough patch to repair, but i believe in you.

What really matters is the people who care about you now. Those are the people that lift you up, and keep you standing. And to my closest friends I thank you all for being with me, and supporting everything i do. I thank you for existing and being part of my life no matter how bumpy it got.

Like thinking about these moments is a part of healing and letting go. Learning from past mistakes, and giving yourself a chance to be a better person even if you did nothing wrong. Theres always room for growth and people will always be healing. Thats i guess how life is and that its all up to you.

Or maybe it’s just part of being human and having experiences like this where you care too much for people who dont even care about you anymore but yet you still do. The human mind is weird. In ways, its upsetting, but in other ways its comforting.

Maybe im just used to it at this point that it’s just whatever, it happened, and ill move on, but that doesn’t mean i dont care about them. Maybe I’m just too nice but i still think about those who hurt me and my friends and i hope they’re getting the help they need, and living out their lives.

Unfortunately for me, i feel more desensitized to losing people because of how many friendships, and people I’ve lost. While it hurts for a bit, i don’t feel as hurt as those around me who are also affected. If anything I’m more disappointed for those who are hurt than myself.