i'm bringing the "i think i'm gonna dine in this house stuffing"

it also keeps the blood off of the organizers hands if they say "hey, yall didn't support your fave" or "you didn't stand up for yourself" enough.

like no, maybe these awards were never for smaller, more marginalized streamers.

or worse, they'll feign support on social media or in bigger events and then get clipped on some smaller stream about how "left out" or "othered" THEY feel.

its wild.

so bottom line, the platform and its highest performers who "represent" the "community" will never represent the people who watch - never fully.

it's a nepotistic collaborative venture to further their own agendas, which often come out to being anti-most of their viewers. but sunk-cost fallacy.

arguably leading to more vitriol from outside their audience rather than good faith new viewers.

but these massive streamers are also to blame. "scandals" of homophobic remarks or transphobia, and they've perfectly trained their parasocial fans to pick up a mod sword to defend them.

this is an insular award show made my a streamer and all her streamer friends often get nominated because they all collaborate.

but also, the platform rarely shines the light on queer creators unless its a brand deal that needs to tokenize them or pride month, which puts them on the front page -

the way i zoned out completely in that thing, by the time it was done it felt like no time passed at all. which was scarier to me that i disassociated that much rather than the loud cranking.

but doctor will get the results monday

thank you! and yes, my last doctor just put me on meds (which did help) but NEVER did the scans.

even if the answers are nothing, its a peace of mind knowing its not something rattling around up there making the head stuff worse! the next stop is eye doctor lol

this photoshoot with david jonsson and him... both are fascinating individuals, let's keep it at that 🫡

also there's details and more descriptions in the alt because character limit but i adore treasure and i miss him.

on her merch site! she has a whole charm section, its sooo cute