Gonna be jumping on Fortnite in a few with my liddle bro! So that'll be fun small vibes toooo~

Please cross your fingers for me!~ This apartment is REALLY nice, located in the same neighborhood as my old one, and is pretty reasonably priced. I really really really hope I get it!

All I can get here is delta 9. Looking forward to being back in Pittsburgh and getting my medical card again so I can get actual GOOD weed again.

To get to the gym. When I get to Pittsburgh, that ALL changes. I'm so ready to be super back in shape and eating healthy again, cooking my own meals instead of eating fast food hiding in my room.

I'm very very ready to be moving forward into the first solid plan of my life, ever. Patience.

Mind you, this is a 5 to 10 year plan. We're talking about the long game here. But that's my plans for the future.

I also want to get back in shape again; right now, with working basically all doubles at work, plus the stress I'm under of having to speed pack my stuff again, I don't have time...

Which all leads to the final step of said plan, which is to move back to the New York area and achieve my true dream of surviving comfortably off of a music career in NY.

I want to go home. I miss NY so so much. I always have, since I first left it. I got back there once, but it was tainted.

I don't want riches and fame, I want to be able to make a living doing the thing that makes me happy, and the thing that I'm actually good at.

After graduating, obviously the next step is getting an internship at a studio. From there learning the trade, honing my skills, and learning new ones.

However, I move back to Pittsburgh with purpose in my life, finally; once I'm settled on, I will be going back to school to become an audio engineer/mixer/designer/producer etc. I want to go and have a career doing what I love, which is music.

Unfortunately, the circumstances are very awkward ATM; Addy is leaving in early December, while I am unable to leave until at least February. So I have to live in a house with my ex who I am very not happy with for the next 3 months, which is as great as it sounds. Yeeeeeeeah.

I cannot live without stability in my life anymore. I am also sick to death of not having a solid financial base from which to build a life out of.

I am paying off as much as I can before the move, and continuing to pay what I can in my new apartment, until I am completely zeroed out.

'I leave you with photographs, pictures of trickery
And stains on the carpet and stains on the memory
Songs about happiness murmured in dreams
And we both of us knew how the end always is...

How the end always is...'

'I never said I would stay to the end
I leave you with babies and hoping for secrecy
Screaming like this in the hole of sincerity
Scream with me over and over and over...'