I am still unable to properly express words besides AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA THANK YOU ILY I'm cry I even showed the boyfie and he was like OH SHES SOOOO CUTE you have both our approval im so uueeee

my ego tells me I did nothing wrong and that it's a one sided problem because you never ever were the best at communicating and would disappear for weeks on end sometimes

my lack of self faith tells me you actually didnt like spending time with me and was just putting up with me

stuck at a fork

thank you for your kind words, you got it exactly right. footprints in your life and stuff. it'll be hard to move on maybe without any closure but i've come this far ✨️

I think what's crazy about this scenario is that I feel like some information is obscured now. I'm doubting myself. Was your birthday on the 15th, or the 17th? It doesn't matter anymore. It never did because we would just spend all that time together anyway.

Whatever. I'll delete this tomorrow.

Happy birthday, Jordan. I love you so much, still. My best friend, my ride or die. That's what I always thought. Please be safe. Thank you for being my friend in the past. Know you are still loved.

mutual friend of ours but he didn't even know you ghosted me. It affected me to the point he wanted to intervene and figure things out. Nothing came out of it. I hope that whatever you're doing—playing MHWilds, Uma, FFXIV—things we used to do together—that you're happy and having fun. That's all.

Discord, you're still in my servers but I am not in yours anymore. Sometimes I just want you to tell me if I did something wrong or why you won't talk to me. I don't know what closure I need. I don't know how to feel anymore without you. I want to get over this. Even my partner has reached out to a

I cried in the damn work bathroom over you, several times. I miss you so much. You still follow me here, with a link to my handle and "Dee's biggest fan" in your bio. You were always my biggest supporter. It's unlikely you'll ever see this—you joined Bluesky for me. We're still added on Steam,

I never heard from you again. It's been almost a full year without you. We talked every single day without fail. Every day for nine years. How do you move on from that core part of your life? Every day I feel like I get better about not crying about it, but then I revert back to hiding my tears.

have you. Next year would've been ten years knowing you. I always thought you would be there for me through thick and thin. Through everything possible. You know me better than my significant other. But then you stopped responding to my messages out of the blue the beginning of this year, and then

the first ones to say happy birthday to each other on the other's midnight. You were 15 hours ahead but that never mattered to us. I loved always spending time with you on our birthdays and I always looked forward to drawing our OC ship together every year for a gift. This is the first year I don't

THEYRE SO CUTE EGG I LOBE THEEMMMM shakeyshakey

Congrats to the 400!!!!! :D 💜💜✨️

And thank you so much for hosting! Here is some of my art ^^ 🖤❤️🔥

(Some characters not mine, pls see alt text!!)