He’s growing…..

Whewwwww. Same. But I’ve been up since 2am. I hear and read that when you wake up between 3-5 in the am, that’s God. Talk to him.

Here’s what I found

God! Won’t He do it. I’m always looking for the spiritual meaning in everything that’s not just an OCCURRENCE. What is the meaning of this???

She came to me as well and just hugged me. I was dumbfounded and crying like nobody’s business. I had to send her out to her mom bc again, she wouldn’t leave me. I don’t know what any of this meant but I know that I needed those genuine hugs in that moment.

As the mom was leaving, I really never paid attention to the 2nd daughter who had to be about 4 or 5. As they were exiting, the mom walked out the common area but the oldest daughter, who wasn’t near when the first exchange took place saw me sitting.

The baby kept hugging me and saying “hi” while figuring out the best way to turn her hand as she waved at me but she was in my arms the entire time. When I attempted to put the baby down or give her to mom, she didn’t want to go.

Her mom came over and apologized and I told her no worries. She has no idea that’s exactly what I think I needed in that moment. Mom proceeds to say that her daughter NEVER does that as she’s very guarded with people.

When she got close enough, this baby, who just turned 2 years old, extended her arms and just hugged me when picked her up.

These two little sweet baby girls were on site. I don’t know tysm and vice versa. The mom was a few feet away and the youngest baby kept walking towards where I was sitting, but she never made eye contact bc she was watching tv.

But God! He has a sense of humor and He definitely knows what we need when we can’t figure ANYTHING out. Bc I’ve been in an odd state as of late and I’m so protective of myself that I simply haven’t talked to anyone other than therapy and hardly then.

He should get all roses now.

Been there. The struggle is real but it’s worth it if you really want it! Good luck! You got this!