I love this baby immensely already, but I can't help but feel that I probably shouldn't have gotten pregnant again. And that kinda breaks my heart.

has never been a man who loved me gently, not once in my life--speaking of sex or not. I'd rather be loved painfully than never loved at all, & that is the story I have to make peace with at some point or another, but for now I'll just close this thought and my eyes & dream for more in my next life.

I used to believe I deserved this and it was my purpose to serve in this way, but I feel more and more like I deserve to feel loved in my flesh both by myself and by those I share it with. But it's a hard habit to break and hard boundary to draw. Abandonment fears run amok with the thought for there

passion and gentleness with my heart & body. Not devoid of kink, but balanced more keenly towards actually feeling desired as myself first, a fulfillment of a need in my own right; not within my performance as the parchment to rehash power struggles unattached to me but taken from my flesh & spirit

balance... It's not there for spice, it's always been the focus regardless of partner. I honestly just slapped the label of kink onto it because it described what I'd experienced, not because it was actively pursued on my part. When it's just me alone with my thoughts and my body, the fantasy is

with that fact, but the hate part gets bigger all the time. To remain untouched because I'm "fragile" right now hurts me more than I have words for. Earnestly, I don't think I've ever truly been made love to, and that cracks my heart more and more each year. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy kink, but the

I'm tall and sturdy and the men who have been attracted to that have always been broken boys with rage to spare and no where constructive to point it besides my body. I "can take it" and "I'm built for it" so I learned to crave the only passion given to me; pain. I have such a love/hate relationship

Oh gracious, thank you for such a compliment 🫣💜

It is a product one can buy! So thank you ☺️

I want one of these so bad 😅

😝 it's flattering, that's what it is 😇

Thanks for the love on my thighs 💜 and the picture ☺️

🥹 thaaaaank you.