I'M ALSO SLOWLY GETTING OVER MY FEAR OF BEING NEAR CHILDREN BECAUSE I WAS ABUSE WHEN I WAS YOUNG AND I WAS SCARED CHILDREN IN THE RELATIONSHIP WOULD BE HURT BY ME.

SLOWLY MAKING PLANS FOR ME WITH SEEKING HELP & THERAPY CAUSE I WAS SO RESISTING TO HELP. NOW I KNOW THAT IF I WANT TO BE BETTER, I NEED THE HELP SO I CAN BECOME A BETTER VERSION OF MYSELF SO THAT IF THE NEXT TIME I’M EVER IN A RELATIONSHIP, THAT PERSON WILL HAVE MY UNDIVIDED ATTENTION WHEN NEEDED