Like ok a simple no would have sufficed

I've worked so many jobs and man it gets to a point

I don't know when greater achievements were nerfed in my mind where motivation went to die but I overall just think what is the point
I only care to do more because I need home, food, to breathe but who would I be if that didn't exist? Would any of the shit matter?

I've realized I really just wanna be alive I just want to be comfortable I don't really know if I have it in me to want more? And I'm kinda tired of pretending to want more
Wanting to hustle or kill myself to meet a arbitrary expectation that doesn't exist when we die