necessarily the steps cs im still learning those, but ill be talking to my family sbt my day and theyll be like “woah wtf” and it doesnt hit me how cool it actually is until i sit with it. Like today i retracted the sternum and thought to myself “im really in this mans ribs like that”

Also that Venus opposes Mercury in the Exaltations scheme. Intuition vs logic, values vs facts.

amo a los lirios! my fav

“have they gotten back to you yet?” n when i checked my messages i had a notif from them saying i was approved!

but her and i are so connected like she will get physical cramps and back pain like I get when im on my period. She’ll just randomly be like “siento que se me rompe la espalda, estas en tus dias verdad que si?” or when i was applying to this apartment, we were otp and randomly she was like

gracias amigaaaa i lob u

someone youre so excited to talk to, to be around. And this is ruining that for me, which is good. I’m seeing things a little clearer, but now that the illusion is gone it feels empty.

that experience as a point of reference for this new fp. I want to avoid the same patterns I always make. I think the distance came as soon as it could. As I see him more clearly though, I see i have even less in common with him than i thought. And in a wag it makes me sad. It feels good to have

cloud of distraction and lust i placed on him. Since ive been trying to separate fact from fiction, i can appreciate him as his own person, but I cant say definitely if i want him back in my life. I cant speak on him either, so who knows if he even wants me back in his life. Regardless, I’m using

more intense than the current one. With that person, things didn’t end on the most amicable terms, but we’re okay now. I told him he was my fp, he seems to be understanding of this. I dont know if i want to be his friend yet. Seeing him for him was hard, because all ive focused on was the pink

In late 2023/ early 2024 i had two that were pretty brief. then there was spring/summer fp, that situation lasted longer than i wouldve liked, but i learned a lot. Honestly that experience is the reason why I can begin to “see” my current fp as he is. With my previous fp, it became intense, a lot

in common? i suspect these kinds of thoughts are whats helping me keep distance from him. If i make an effort to maintain distance, and see him for who he is, these feelings should fade. A long time had passed since I last had an fp, and it started back up again in late 2023. Since then, ive had 4.

too excessively-well in fp manners of course. I havent talked to him in almost a month, shared very few and sparse texts almost two weeks ago. if i had a good excuse, maybe weaker self restraint, i would have texted or called him. I tell myself hes busy, but besides being busy, do we even have much