of this into the void it'll help clear my head and I'll think of something that'll help. This isn't me quitting art OR nsfw because that's the last thing I want. I just want to find a solution to a problem that's been bugging me a lot the last few years. Also I just really miss being horny 💔

I can't go back to living like that while we trial different treatments. At least not until my partner is out of uni in a few years and is able to help out with the house more while I'm a bleeding lethargic ball of pain and misery. Man idk... I'm just venting and hoping that maybe if I say all-

because honestly this is affecting more than just my art... The second option worries me though because alternate treatments might not keep the pcos under control as well as this and without these meds I'm in severe 24/7 pain, bleeding constantly, and too anemic to function most of the time and-

to enjoy as well. I really need to either find a new source of inspiration for my art so I can get back to drawing like I used to even if it means pivoting away from nsfw or I need to find the time and money to talk to my doctor about other treatment options to try to get back to normal again-

I honestly can't tell if what I'm drawing is sexy or arousing-anymore cause it does nothing for me. And when I do draw nsfw I feel like I'm doing it just to do it and there's no passion or enjoyment behind it and I feel that reflects in the art itself making it harder for others-

whatever yume ship I was obsessed with at the time. And it felt like I'd never run out of ideas for art or characters I'd always enjoy bringing nsfw commissions to life for clients. But now that those feelings are gone I'm really struggling. It takes me SO much longer to get art done because-

Thank you!

It’s one of the best things I’ve ever drawn hahaha
Also very happy with the strange coin brushes I made for it