starting to feel like the only solution is death again

how to say i miss you when what i really mean is "my heart rearranges itself in an attempt to fit all of you no matter how painful that rearranging may be"

how to say i love you without your organs crushing into a little ball

i would hold you until we both rot

not to be dramatic or anything. haha

what if i bled out at your doorstep

what if i pulled out your organs and replaced them with stuffing and you were my soft wonderful doll for all of eternity

what if you chased me down and then made out with me in a dark forest haha wouldnt that be crazy

even though it really doesnt seem like it from the way i post i am taken and i have a fp so like be weary when interacting with my posts. or just dont interact with me this is the account equivalent of a murder shed

so great that i can basically mask as a singlet but only when im talking about my mental illness. impressive cause that shit affects everyone here in different ways

i cant be left alone for ten seconds i will start spiraling

need someone to obsessively stare at me follow me around call me tastefully adorable petnames find out every little thing about me and how i tick and maybe tie me up and litter me with bites while telling me how perfect i taste and hold a hand over my mouth so no one can hear me scream

a man like him would fix me

love me like i am your oxygen

would you love me if i had nothing to offer

kiss my cheek and tell me i'm perfect before tearing me apart

someone stare at me like i am the only thing in their eyes

so glad i learned pretty quickly to turn "WHAT THE FUCK IS LOOKING AT ME" to "can i seduce" because otherwise i think i would have literally died from paranoia

you should fucking kill me in order to spare me the need