Dark Thoughts
darkswordsman.bsky.social
Dark Thoughts
@darkswordsman.bsky.social
A place for me to share my darker thoughts, or more deep thoughts.

The idea is to use this as a semi-journal, for emotional regulation and mental stability.

main: @darkswordsman.com
Why should I put effort in when, every time I try, I just fall back to where I was?

I try very hard. I always beat myself up because I think I'm not trying hard enough.

But here I am. Alone. Unemployed.

Why should I try?
October 18, 2025 at 4:02 AM
You know, that's a great point.

It's ironic how, these days, I am so much more worried abut being myself in VRChat than IRL.

I just realize that a *lot* of people on VRChat use it to escape, though they still bring over their shitty, shallow personalities.
July 28, 2025 at 5:56 AM
I struggle with this as well. A friend at work is known as "she/her", but outside of work they go by "they/them" and a different name. So I absolutely don't blame you for doing that.

But yes. People will absolutely misgender on purpose for various reasons. That's what Silver was talking about.
July 16, 2025 at 10:33 PM
absolutely true.

There are people who maliciously use they or whatever pronoun that *isn't* the preferred one either because they personally don't believe that pronoun exists (anyone can go by any pronoun they want), or because they don't think people can be transgender.
July 16, 2025 at 10:31 PM
In my case, I also use "they" as a generic way to refer to someone. I'm thankful because I've gotten good enough at this that I do it intrinsically.

However, that doesn't mean I will intentionally use it if someone has other preferred pronouns. I still make mistakes, but what Silver is saying is--
July 16, 2025 at 10:31 PM
Hello! My name is dark. My pronouns are he/they. It's primarily because I identify as non-binary.

They is an incredibly valid pronoun that many people use. Just because the traditional use of the word is a "group" of people, doesn't mean it can't also be used in this way.
July 16, 2025 at 10:31 PM
this is clean, i love it.

btw, where do people get those visuals? I see them everywhere but I never found out their name
July 16, 2025 at 8:15 AM
I got word back. I think I definitely deserved the suspension, though it's a common thought that probably half the US has :)

Though it is odd because I think I made that post like a week or two ago.
July 15, 2025 at 7:32 PM
so bad with spending money and I was able to get more than 30 hours a week, I could definitely be making more.
July 15, 2025 at 7:09 PM
I thankfully make a decent bit of money flipping burgers at a very particular chain (not fast food), and honestly, if I was paid an *actual* living wage to do it (being able to rent an actual apartment without issue) I would work that job my whole life if I could.

That being said, if I wasn't --
July 15, 2025 at 7:09 PM
I have no clue. I definitely remember posting some more emotionally charged things, but I don't ever recall actually inciting violence.
July 15, 2025 at 11:32 AM
My main got suspended for 24h, that's why
July 15, 2025 at 11:31 AM
Oh my lord this looks amazing
July 15, 2025 at 11:24 AM