I've spent way too much time listening to these messages this year. No one warned me that cancer would be equal parts pain and boredom.

Celebrating this Saturday, 6-9 pm. Please C19 test before.

Sometimes it's the tiny moments that surprise me with pain. I edited my daily task list. I started it years ago to help me remember the things I needed to do for self care. It also reminded me to give Jamie his medication. Deleting hurt.

Last night, when I found myself alone in bed, of course, I started crying. Then I heard a beautiful chirping noise as Ziggy bounded onto the bed and snuggled. He sounded like he was saying, "I'm coming Mama!" He snuggled on top of me and stayed on top of me until I fell asleep.

My darling sweet kitty, my beloved Jamie, has died. He passed while lying in his favorite place, my lap. He was surrounded by family and love. This weekend will take him to burry him among the bones of our other deceased feline family, including his sister and brother. What is remembered lives.

With song we greet the return of the sun!