cy(ia)n
@cynventing.bsky.social
alt account for me to just kinda say whatever's on my mind
so this is gonna be mainly venting, most likely
so this is gonna be mainly venting, most likely
Pinned
most of the posts here will only be able to be replied to if i know you
if i know you and im just stupid, dm me and i'll follow ya
if i know you and im just stupid, dm me and i'll follow ya
(added label because its my cut up fucking arm)
December 2, 2025 at 6:29 AM
(added label because its my cut up fucking arm)
oddly satisfying rolling my hand up my cut up arm n feelin all the bumps
December 2, 2025 at 3:14 AM
oddly satisfying rolling my hand up my cut up arm n feelin all the bumps
not gonna go into detail rn but i feel abysmal but whatelse is new
December 1, 2025 at 7:44 AM
not gonna go into detail rn but i feel abysmal but whatelse is new
im so sorry i cant do better
or be a better person
or do something other than make you worry about me
i really dont deserve all of you
none of you deserve someone as miserable as me
you can leave me if you want
go to my profile, click the 3 dots and press "Block" and suddenly im no longer a problem
or be a better person
or do something other than make you worry about me
i really dont deserve all of you
none of you deserve someone as miserable as me
you can leave me if you want
go to my profile, click the 3 dots and press "Block" and suddenly im no longer a problem
November 30, 2025 at 8:34 AM
im so sorry i cant do better
or be a better person
or do something other than make you worry about me
i really dont deserve all of you
none of you deserve someone as miserable as me
you can leave me if you want
go to my profile, click the 3 dots and press "Block" and suddenly im no longer a problem
or be a better person
or do something other than make you worry about me
i really dont deserve all of you
none of you deserve someone as miserable as me
you can leave me if you want
go to my profile, click the 3 dots and press "Block" and suddenly im no longer a problem
my arm would look better with more cuts
November 30, 2025 at 8:03 AM
my arm would look better with more cuts
good thing i wear long sleeves
November 30, 2025 at 7:34 AM
good thing i wear long sleeves
what i deserve btw <3
November 30, 2025 at 7:20 AM
what i deserve btw <3
its probably a deep cut i imagine
but once i do it
it'd all be over
and that sounds really nice
but once i do it
it'd all be over
and that sounds really nice
November 30, 2025 at 6:22 AM
its probably a deep cut i imagine
but once i do it
it'd all be over
and that sounds really nice
but once i do it
it'd all be over
and that sounds really nice
think i should do it
i dont see why not
i could do it
its right there
just one cut
and im out of all of you guy's hair
i dont see why not
i could do it
its right there
just one cut
and im out of all of you guy's hair
November 30, 2025 at 6:06 AM
think i should do it
i dont see why not
i could do it
its right there
just one cut
and im out of all of you guy's hair
i dont see why not
i could do it
its right there
just one cut
and im out of all of you guy's hair
yeah i think theres just something wrong with my brain i think i should blow it out
November 30, 2025 at 5:37 AM
yeah i think theres just something wrong with my brain i think i should blow it out
uhh so i may have caused myself to bleed
i didnt know i could go that deep genuinely
i didnt know i could go that deep genuinely
November 28, 2025 at 10:32 PM
uhh so i may have caused myself to bleed
i didnt know i could go that deep genuinely
i didnt know i could go that deep genuinely
Reposted by cy(ia)n
sometimes at the end of the night i reflect and realize how far ive gotten and it feels like ive gone no where and im slowly falling down a hole that wont end and the only way out is to just kill myself and im starting to want to do that more because holy FUCK i cant do this shit anymore
November 23, 2025 at 6:39 AM
sometimes at the end of the night i reflect and realize how far ive gotten and it feels like ive gone no where and im slowly falling down a hole that wont end and the only way out is to just kill myself and im starting to want to do that more because holy FUCK i cant do this shit anymore
Reposted by cy(ia)n
and ive been falling down this godamn hole for so fucking long and im terrified to splatter at the end and i could just take the easy way out i mean the knife is right there i just have to plunge it into myself but i cant for some reason???? i wont let myself??? i dont even know anymore but holyshit
sometimes at the end of the night i reflect and realize how far ive gotten and it feels like ive gone no where and im slowly falling down a hole that wont end and the only way out is to just kill myself and im starting to want to do that more because holy FUCK i cant do this shit anymore
November 23, 2025 at 6:42 AM
and ive been falling down this godamn hole for so fucking long and im terrified to splatter at the end and i could just take the easy way out i mean the knife is right there i just have to plunge it into myself but i cant for some reason???? i wont let myself??? i dont even know anymore but holyshit
ill do it you just have to ask and i wont bother you anymore so yknow thats an option if youd like please please please pleasepleasepleasepleasedplesaepsalepaslepaselpaslepaselpleasepesalpalspealelpapepleapleasplaepslpsepleplapepalpepalpealpesaplesplelppelplaespaespespespespsapesepepalsaesplapsleple
November 23, 2025 at 6:30 AM
ill do it you just have to ask and i wont bother you anymore so yknow thats an option if youd like please please please pleasepleasepleasepleasedplesaepsalepaslepaselpaslepaselpleasepesalpalspealelpapepleapleasplaepslpsepleplapepalpepalpealpesaplesplelppelplaespaespespespespsapesepepalsaesplapsleple
genuinely just thought "i need to find this knife vro i cant be killing myslef in my sleep ive gotta do it while awake" holy fuck
November 23, 2025 at 6:25 AM
genuinely just thought "i need to find this knife vro i cant be killing myslef in my sleep ive gotta do it while awake" holy fuck
Reposted by cy(ia)n
unrelated but whats the quickest way to kill oneself?
November 20, 2025 at 4:50 AM
unrelated but whats the quickest way to kill oneself?
why do i always feel exhausted. i havent even done anything. whats wrong with me
November 20, 2025 at 6:01 AM
why do i always feel exhausted. i havent even done anything. whats wrong with me
unrelated but whats the quickest way to kill oneself?
November 20, 2025 at 4:50 AM
unrelated but whats the quickest way to kill oneself?
i cant sleep. I dont know why. im tired. why cant i just sleep.
can i put myself to sleep.
whats wrong with me.
im sorry you have to put up with me.
i should just kill myself.
can i put myself to sleep.
whats wrong with me.
im sorry you have to put up with me.
i should just kill myself.
November 20, 2025 at 4:39 AM
i cant sleep. I dont know why. im tired. why cant i just sleep.
can i put myself to sleep.
whats wrong with me.
im sorry you have to put up with me.
i should just kill myself.
can i put myself to sleep.
whats wrong with me.
im sorry you have to put up with me.
i should just kill myself.
i dont know what to think anymore. goodnight
November 20, 2025 at 3:59 AM
i dont know what to think anymore. goodnight
i wouldve killed myself already if i wasnt a little bitch about it
November 20, 2025 at 3:20 AM
i wouldve killed myself already if i wasnt a little bitch about it
i think itd be a good idea
i have nothing to look forward to
i have no one to help me
i should just kill myself
i dont see why not
i have nothing to look forward to
i have no one to help me
i should just kill myself
i dont see why not
November 20, 2025 at 2:45 AM
i think itd be a good idea
i have nothing to look forward to
i have no one to help me
i should just kill myself
i dont see why not
i have nothing to look forward to
i have no one to help me
i should just kill myself
i dont see why not
considering it less now
would still kill myself if given the chance though
would still kill myself if given the chance though
November 20, 2025 at 12:04 AM
considering it less now
would still kill myself if given the chance though
would still kill myself if given the chance though