im losing it

its happening its happening

im gonna hurt someone or damage one of my relationships and i really don't want to

scared of whats gonna happen the day i crack again and people see what im really like when i lose the ability to restrain myself. i can feel myself becoming messier by the day.

honestly getting on rym is one of the better things you can do for yourself if you wanna get more into music. it doesn't have an app but you can use the "add to homescreen" function in your mobile browser to effectively turn the webpage into a usable app.

im lesbiats on there, obviously, if anyone wants to follow me. im still not super consistent with throwing ratings on there and i have completely forgotten how to review music and don't have the vocab for it at all anymore but i do intend to keep using it.

i log into rym and the homepage is just a series of album recommendations made by actual human beings from a variety of genres and eras and literally all of them are good and i cultivate my own little space where i can catalog my listening so it's easier to find stuff years from now. this is great.

sorry

i want to break every bone in my worthless body

i can't deal with this i can't deal with feeling this alone all the time i can't deal with feeling like the life i want is so far away and so hard to grasp i can't do this i can't do this i can't do this i can't

yeah ur a real dyke for sure :)

yea :)

btw ty to the girls who have checked in on me ill be okay im just going through it