people in this community needs to understand this is what i was condemned to when shit happened in 2020, this is my life because of what people choose for me back then, not in spite of, still, i have no grudges anymore, im past that, anything ill consider it as if none would happened

over all things, what i would had wished is honesty, even if bleak i would have accepted it if it was the truth

i fulfilled my part of the bargain and i still was left to rot, why to promise things that were not done in the end, if you told me you did not intended to do anything at all, i would had understood that, but you promised it and that is what ruined my life

do what you want nowdays, i cant stop you, i have no push in this community anymore i am nobody, my work is even more known than my name is, so i shouldnt care, but the confinement ive been forced to live in, for the last 5 years, its been soul crushing, i cant draw like this

i did my part, im sure of it, now i admit my expectations were too high, but back in the day it was the pinacle, what else i would have to believe that i was going to be saved from the purgatory i live in, and instead i was surely sent into it to suffer alone

i hate to bring it up, it brings trauma, but is a reality that cant be changed, and the counterpart refuses to do any kind of reparations, so thats that and its just what it is

this realization brought to my memory a little something that happened 5 years ago, where i mentioned the u word to someone of power, their answer was, it was not necessary, they get more than what they should

and honestly that explanation wouldnt be necessary if they did not fear that concept

ive been hitting my head for years as to why working conditions were so bad and poor in what it seemed the companies with the biggest revenue here, easy to estimate more than 50 workers inside, and yeah, union is the answer

hey, they mean a lot to me actually, and i do remember you of course, as i do with everyone i have individual experiences

is just, that, well, i havent been able to log since a couple nights ago, and besides i dont know what to say that may help, i am reading and listening tho

it sucks but what really makes it soul breaking for me is that there is no way out anymore, this is my present and future and maybe i made a mistake in daring to be here existing again

i will probably be homeless for the rest of my life, and i dont want to go to the city, i dont want to resolve to steal or beg for food, i rather walk the road and live off what i can find, still, it couldnt be farther away from anything i ever wished for my life

how could i get to this point, i had hopes things could go better, i really, really wanted a peaceful life with a few friends and a purpose, but ever since that moment, things have just gone worse and worse, now i barely have clothes in a bag and prepparing to walk alone for i dont know how long

i dont think i can draw or design stuff anymore

well, santiago is a hellscape right now, that is why becoming a tramp in patagonia, is the safest option, funniest thing is if i make it to the southest im way more likely to find fellow canadians and americans before other chileans, is good im bilingual esp and eng, and currently learning french