I literally tried not to think about my party so much that i haven't mentally prepped and now I'm anxious anyway because it's starting in just over an hour and I can't stop crying so I guess no makeup which is fine but my eyes are gonna look bad bECAUSE IVE BEEN CRYING

And I feel awful because my friends/ housemates are trying to make things good for the party and I'm just being miserable and annoying and stressed for no reason !!