right now than theyve been in a while. ive honestly been kind of mia just dealing with depression/ptsd. if you are a survivor, please give yourself some grace right now.

ive been researching lolita a lot recently because ive always found the book to be both confronting and comforting to myself as a survivor, strange as that sounds. and in learning more about the historical context of it, its adaptations, and perspectives on survivors i feel things are much worse

i wouldnt call it praxis, exactly. but i do feel survival is a radical thing in a world that actively wants death.

grip the world, i have felt stronger in the conviction that choosing joy, creative expression, and academic expression is a form of resistance. if it wasnt, the fascists would not be trying so hard to censor it. we need to talk about the erotic, the queer, the filthy.