🐶 carter / kai 🐱
@cowofchaos.bsky.social
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🔒OWNED | 10•25(/6•18)🔑
🪦stonedclown on vent🪦
🩺MDD/GAD/SAD²/PTSD/BPD/SVT/arrhythmia🩺
he/they/it | 22 | bi/abro | webkinz, game grumps, ouid | stream of consciousness style posts
🔒OWNED | 10•25(/6•18)🔑
🪦stonedclown on vent🪦
🩺MDD/GAD/SAD²/PTSD/BPD/SVT/arrhythmia🩺
he/they/it | 22 | bi/abro | webkinz, game grumps, ouid | stream of consciousness style posts
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So many needs and so many thoughts but mostly just 💚
January 4, 2026 at 3:54 PM
So many needs and so many thoughts but mostly just 💚
Why am I so tiiiiired,,,,,, I know I'm hitting the pen constantly and that I'm completely sedentary and that my seasonal affective disorder is kicking in but liiiike,,,,, whyyyyyyyy,,,,,,,
January 3, 2026 at 2:06 AM
Why am I so tiiiiired,,,,,, I know I'm hitting the pen constantly and that I'm completely sedentary and that my seasonal affective disorder is kicking in but liiiike,,,,, whyyyyyyyy,,,,,,,
Daddy issues taking over my life again teeheeheeeeee
January 2, 2026 at 11:51 PM
Daddy issues taking over my life again teeheeheeeeee
Waking up at 9am to a mix of deja vu/reve and extremely missing my partner 👍👍👍 not to mention mouth pain bc I need braces but can't get them yet 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍
January 2, 2026 at 2:21 PM
Waking up at 9am to a mix of deja vu/reve and extremely missing my partner 👍👍👍 not to mention mouth pain bc I need braces but can't get them yet 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍
I think a hug from 🥘 would cure all of my disorders
January 2, 2026 at 3:30 AM
I think a hug from 🥘 would cure all of my disorders
Just wound up scrolling through my own posts and I'm glad I did bc I was reminded that, at the time, I thought *I* was the one walking away, only for it to be more,,, mutual??? I don't know,,, I'm really confused,,,,, I'm so tired of not being able to remember what happens in my own fuckin life,,,
January 1, 2026 at 5:54 PM
Just wound up scrolling through my own posts and I'm glad I did bc I was reminded that, at the time, I thought *I* was the one walking away, only for it to be more,,, mutual??? I don't know,,, I'm really confused,,,,, I'm so tired of not being able to remember what happens in my own fuckin life,,,
New year starting with Deja Vu Anxiety 👍👍👍👍👍
January 1, 2026 at 4:19 PM
New year starting with Deja Vu Anxiety 👍👍👍👍👍
Jngngnsanaks nother thought,,,,,, them setting it to music and trying to make me guess the song,,,,, except I'm a stuttering whimpering braindead mess that can't form words or thoughts,,,,,,,,,,,, anyway,,,,,,,
January 1, 2026 at 8:22 AM
Jngngnsanaks nother thought,,,,,, them setting it to music and trying to make me guess the song,,,,, except I'm a stuttering whimpering braindead mess that can't form words or thoughts,,,,,,,,,,,, anyway,,,,,,,
Wait that was super sweet but why is that the 4th future telling thing to mention marriage am I actually going to marry this man*,,,,,,
(* person but I can't find a word that carries the same weight, or like,, dominance? Power? English,,,, words,,,,,,)
Aaaaaaaanyways,,,, I hope so,,,, even if ↓
(* person but I can't find a word that carries the same weight, or like,, dominance? Power? English,,,, words,,,,,,)
Aaaaaaaanyways,,,, I hope so,,,, even if ↓
January 1, 2026 at 8:15 AM
Wait that was super sweet but why is that the 4th future telling thing to mention marriage am I actually going to marry this man*,,,,,,
(* person but I can't find a word that carries the same weight, or like,, dominance? Power? English,,,, words,,,,,,)
Aaaaaaaanyways,,,, I hope so,,,, even if ↓
(* person but I can't find a word that carries the same weight, or like,, dominance? Power? English,,,, words,,,,,,)
Aaaaaaaanyways,,,, I hope so,,,, even if ↓
Oh yeah and also happy new year LMAO I'm so dissociated it DOES NOT feel like new years at all,,, I mean we also didn't watch the ball drop bc dad had medical issues and we're all sick and tired but,,, I've *been* in this weird funk,,,,, idk maybe I'm just losin my marblesssss
January 1, 2026 at 8:07 AM
Oh yeah and also happy new year LMAO I'm so dissociated it DOES NOT feel like new years at all,,, I mean we also didn't watch the ball drop bc dad had medical issues and we're all sick and tired but,,, I've *been* in this weird funk,,,,, idk maybe I'm just losin my marblesssss
Can't stop thinking about 💚,,,,,,,, especially with something special on the way,,,,,,,,,,,,,, god I hope it actually works,,,,,
January 1, 2026 at 8:05 AM
Can't stop thinking about 💚,,,,,,,, especially with something special on the way,,,,,,,,,,,,,, god I hope it actually works,,,,,
When I finally start to acknowledge that I never processed the breakup and all of a sudden Milk In The Morning comes on and it feels like a boulder on top of my chest
December 31, 2025 at 5:37 PM
When I finally start to acknowledge that I never processed the breakup and all of a sudden Milk In The Morning comes on and it feels like a boulder on top of my chest
Why does 🌕 keep going in our chat and/or starting to type,,,, like sir all due respect, YOU were the one claiming to not be over your ex sooooo,,,,,,, which is ironic as fuck bc *I* wound up going back to an ex,,,,, the ex I thought 🌕 was,,,,,, it has been a strange year,,,,,,, but like but like,,,
December 31, 2025 at 5:24 PM
Why does 🌕 keep going in our chat and/or starting to type,,,, like sir all due respect, YOU were the one claiming to not be over your ex sooooo,,,,,,, which is ironic as fuck bc *I* wound up going back to an ex,,,,, the ex I thought 🌕 was,,,,,, it has been a strange year,,,,,,, but like but like,,,
Thinking of people from my past again /neutral
December 31, 2025 at 12:48 PM
Thinking of people from my past again /neutral
Henlo it has been a while and I actually don't remember why???? But hi. I am. In chaos mode. I can't even begin to explain my thoughts. What I CAN say is that 🤖 totally gets it and 💚, as of right now, does not. And that is,,,,,,,,,,, :// :(( I just want affection bro, I'm making it so obvious,,,,,,
December 30, 2025 at 1:08 AM
Henlo it has been a while and I actually don't remember why???? But hi. I am. In chaos mode. I can't even begin to explain my thoughts. What I CAN say is that 🤖 totally gets it and 💚, as of right now, does not. And that is,,,,,,,,,,, :// :(( I just want affection bro, I'm making it so obvious,,,,,,
Came here to express my appreciation for 🤖 bc hngndnfng he make me feel so seen and understood and like woah I'm not entirely crazy bUT ALSO,,,, mY PARTNER,,,,, FISJSJSJEJDJSJS I just love them so so so fucking much and I hate to be Literally Insane but I can't wait for the day that I'm living with
November 11, 2025 at 2:56 AM
Came here to express my appreciation for 🤖 bc hngndnfng he make me feel so seen and understood and like woah I'm not entirely crazy bUT ALSO,,,, mY PARTNER,,,,, FISJSJSJEJDJSJS I just love them so so so fucking much and I hate to be Literally Insane but I can't wait for the day that I'm living with
Just got my broken cart to work WHOOO I AM ON TOP OF THE WORLDDDDDDD
November 11, 2025 at 2:30 AM
Just got my broken cart to work WHOOO I AM ON TOP OF THE WORLDDDDDDD
Like I hate to be that guy but,,,,, would anyone be willing to purchase some pics/vids/audio from me bc,,,, I literally just need five bucks bruh that is it 😭 #broke #poor #desperate #sale #begging
October 25, 2025 at 4:36 PM
Like I hate to be that guy but,,,,, would anyone be willing to purchase some pics/vids/audio from me bc,,,, I literally just need five bucks bruh that is it 😭 #broke #poor #desperate #sale #begging
There is so much happening and I cannot express it all here rn but what I will say is this: I am sO tempted to dig up an audio or smth and post it for sale bc literally aLL I fkn need is fIVE DOLLARSSSS THAT IS ITTT AND MY $$ APPS ARE BEING BITCHESSSSS WAHHHHH
October 25, 2025 at 4:34 PM
There is so much happening and I cannot express it all here rn but what I will say is this: I am sO tempted to dig up an audio or smth and post it for sale bc literally aLL I fkn need is fIVE DOLLARSSSS THAT IS ITTT AND MY $$ APPS ARE BEING BITCHESSSSS WAHHHHH
Fuck maybe this is a mistake
October 23, 2025 at 10:59 PM
Fuck maybe this is a mistake
Can you just back the fuck off for once
October 23, 2025 at 3:18 AM
Can you just back the fuck off for once
So much is happening but I LOVE that feeling of falling back in love with life,,,, like woah,,,,, happiness and safety and comfort within myself are possible??? Wild,,,,,,,
October 22, 2025 at 12:49 AM
So much is happening but I LOVE that feeling of falling back in love with life,,,, like woah,,,,, happiness and safety and comfort within myself are possible??? Wild,,,,,,,
Sorry I didn't reply I was too busy crying over a uti
October 16, 2025 at 5:23 AM
Sorry I didn't reply I was too busy crying over a uti
Just sent a painfully honest yap about my feelings for 💚 and I am now petrified and also bracing for being friendzoned
October 10, 2025 at 1:58 PM
Just sent a painfully honest yap about my feelings for 💚 and I am now petrified and also bracing for being friendzoned