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🐶 carter / kai 🐱
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🔒OWNED | 10•25(/6•18)🔑
🪦stonedclown on vent🪦
🩺MDD/GAD/SAD²/PTSD/BPD/SVT/arrhythmia🩺
he/they/it | 22 | bi/abro | webkinz, game grumps, ouid | stream of consciousness style posts
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Emoji Key For My Own Tiny Brain
So many needs and so many thoughts but mostly just 💚
January 4, 2026 at 3:54 PM
Why am I so tiiiiired,,,,,, I know I'm hitting the pen constantly and that I'm completely sedentary and that my seasonal affective disorder is kicking in but liiiike,,,,, whyyyyyyyy,,,,,,,
January 3, 2026 at 2:06 AM
Daddy issues taking over my life again teeheeheeeeee
January 2, 2026 at 11:51 PM
Waking up at 9am to a mix of deja vu/reve and extremely missing my partner 👍👍👍 not to mention mouth pain bc I need braces but can't get them yet 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍
January 2, 2026 at 2:21 PM
I think a hug from 🥘 would cure all of my disorders
January 2, 2026 at 3:30 AM
Just wound up scrolling through my own posts and I'm glad I did bc I was reminded that, at the time, I thought *I* was the one walking away, only for it to be more,,, mutual??? I don't know,,, I'm really confused,,,,, I'm so tired of not being able to remember what happens in my own fuckin life,,,
January 1, 2026 at 5:54 PM
New year starting with Deja Vu Anxiety 👍👍👍👍👍
January 1, 2026 at 4:19 PM
Jngngnsanaks nother thought,,,,,, them setting it to music and trying to make me guess the song,,,,, except I'm a stuttering whimpering braindead mess that can't form words or thoughts,,,,,,,,,,,, anyway,,,,,,,
January 1, 2026 at 8:22 AM
Wait that was super sweet but why is that the 4th future telling thing to mention marriage am I actually going to marry this man*,,,,,,

(* person but I can't find a word that carries the same weight, or like,, dominance? Power? English,,,, words,,,,,,)

Aaaaaaaanyways,,,, I hope so,,,, even if ↓
January 1, 2026 at 8:15 AM
Oh yeah and also happy new year LMAO I'm so dissociated it DOES NOT feel like new years at all,,, I mean we also didn't watch the ball drop bc dad had medical issues and we're all sick and tired but,,, I've *been* in this weird funk,,,,, idk maybe I'm just losin my marblesssss
January 1, 2026 at 8:07 AM
Can't stop thinking about 💚,,,,,,,, especially with something special on the way,,,,,,,,,,,,,, god I hope it actually works,,,,,
January 1, 2026 at 8:05 AM
When I finally start to acknowledge that I never processed the breakup and all of a sudden Milk In The Morning comes on and it feels like a boulder on top of my chest
December 31, 2025 at 5:37 PM
Why does 🌕 keep going in our chat and/or starting to type,,,, like sir all due respect, YOU were the one claiming to not be over your ex sooooo,,,,,,, which is ironic as fuck bc *I* wound up going back to an ex,,,,, the ex I thought 🌕 was,,,,,, it has been a strange year,,,,,,, but like but like,,,
December 31, 2025 at 5:24 PM
Thinking of people from my past again /neutral
December 31, 2025 at 12:48 PM
Henlo it has been a while and I actually don't remember why???? But hi. I am. In chaos mode. I can't even begin to explain my thoughts. What I CAN say is that 🤖 totally gets it and 💚, as of right now, does not. And that is,,,,,,,,,,, :// :(( I just want affection bro, I'm making it so obvious,,,,,,
December 30, 2025 at 1:08 AM
Came here to express my appreciation for 🤖 bc hngndnfng he make me feel so seen and understood and like woah I'm not entirely crazy bUT ALSO,,,, mY PARTNER,,,,, FISJSJSJEJDJSJS I just love them so so so fucking much and I hate to be Literally Insane but I can't wait for the day that I'm living with
November 11, 2025 at 2:56 AM
Just got my broken cart to work WHOOO I AM ON TOP OF THE WORLDDDDDDD
November 11, 2025 at 2:30 AM
Like I hate to be that guy but,,,,, would anyone be willing to purchase some pics/vids/audio from me bc,,,, I literally just need five bucks bruh that is it 😭 #broke #poor #desperate #sale #begging
October 25, 2025 at 4:36 PM
There is so much happening and I cannot express it all here rn but what I will say is this: I am sO tempted to dig up an audio or smth and post it for sale bc literally aLL I fkn need is fIVE DOLLARSSSS THAT IS ITTT AND MY $$ APPS ARE BEING BITCHESSSSS WAHHHHH
October 25, 2025 at 4:34 PM
Fuck maybe this is a mistake
October 23, 2025 at 10:59 PM
Can you just back the fuck off for once
October 23, 2025 at 3:18 AM
So much is happening but I LOVE that feeling of falling back in love with life,,,, like woah,,,,, happiness and safety and comfort within myself are possible??? Wild,,,,,,,
October 22, 2025 at 12:49 AM
Sorry I didn't reply I was too busy crying over a uti
October 16, 2025 at 5:23 AM
I miss vent
October 10, 2025 at 8:35 PM
Just sent a painfully honest yap about my feelings for 💚 and I am now petrified and also bracing for being friendzoned
October 10, 2025 at 1:58 PM