Every day I fall back to saying it's all meant to be and just deal with it.

Every day I fall back to saying it's all meant to be and just deal with it.

Got some things cleared up last night that had been weighing on me. But clearly just smacked me in the face again with another that I can't do much about and get annoyed with often. Oh well I'm kinda done but still keep on looking as if some real connections were out there even if it were casual

I wish sometimes one thing didn't cause like a full reset to what I want. Hoping for one thing. Wishing the other things that are long past would be possible. Just a lot of things would have to be undone for that. I'll get over it and continue on as I have.

Sometimes wonder if I should just be in a dumb puppy mode. Seems being a cuddle toy is about as best as I feel like being.

I hate feeling it lately of 'I give up' though it really isn't me giving up anything. It's more just accepting what suck there is. Just comes and think about why and it's just a general list of sucky things that over time may be fixed... Or not

I'm not owed a thing. I try not to have anyone feel they owe me anything.

Though there are some out there that might at one time. Eventually I just don't care to claim or cash in on it.

I'm just going to sleep for the next 14 hours once home. I'm just grumpy af over stupidest things.

Cya Motor City Fur Con

Got stuff to do, some which has to be done before it's late because I made arrangements.

Meh.

Yeah I'll leave it at that. Plenty of self reflection to do again. Most of which I need to internalize... Stop caring and stop being nice.

Still deciding what it means in many ways. Some going back to old things to keep me busy. Out of all the things I been trying to do better had me trying different approaches. Since covid my social skills have eroded back to where they were 15+ years ago. Though that was also a period of a new start.

Another con done. Not sure how many I want to do again this year.

Much to take away from this weekend. Mostly same things as usual. But all in all what difference does it make?

My dumbass got covid from Anthrocon only being there for the day on Sunday.

Don't know how. Don't know from whom. I'm a bit pissed over it.

Sometime ago I got my name back, I dunno how doesn't matter. I'm not here but maybe I'll be furry for a while

Well this site is fun.... some rando took my name. whatever. Probably same loser that got banned on twitch