Don't entirely feel myself though...

🐺 Going for an early night and with any luck I won't be here tomorrow. Some other headmate can have this body and whatever life it has. I'm not worthy of it. Just let this depressed wolf fade into the background and give her the peace she so desperately needs.

🐺 At this point, I'd even be happy with a split if it means I can go away and stop being the problem. I'm a bad host, I don't check in with the system, I'm always wrapped up in my own emotions and struggling to manage them. Just... let me go, please. I don't want to be here anymore.

🐺 Naga was always the better person in here anyway. She isn't a depressive wreck, she can make a mistake and not spiral into hating and hitting herself.
She can actually socialise. She isn't just a hopeless empty wreck with no hobbies or interests or desire to do anything

🐺 I already have no confidence or esteem in myself. So...what's the point. Let me be dormant and someone else who isn't a useless retarded failure can have a life.

🐺 And yes, I know this is the epitome of just sticking my head in the sand, but I'm the problem and I've tried to fix myself and I haven't been able to. If those important to me think I'm never going to be anything better, then what's the point of being here and trying?

🐺 I don't have the guts to die. And that'd just kill everyone else in here too, so...

Help me go dormant? Please? I can't do this anymore. I can't keep facing the shame and guilt of constantly letting everyone around me down, including those in the system. I don't want to be here anymore.

🐺 I've tried to be better. I've tried to deal with this. Instead I just spiral down into self loathing and hurt myself over the tiniest mistakes and it all just snowballs and piles up.

Today should've been a nice date day. Instead I ruined it over forgetting to turn off a radiator...

🐺 I can't do anything right. I'm constantly on a hair trigger temper that's horrid to be around. I don't know how to fix it or make myself better, and I'm so tired it's hard to do anything. My partner genuinely believes I won't ever change or improve either... I keep letting her down...

We've told him that all this shit is built on stealing others work. Told him how we're an aspiring artist / creative and how our work would get stolen and used in these.

Does he care? Hah. Of course not!

Instead, no, it's fucking "admiral chen" this, "the council" that. All day. Every day. We care for him but he doesn't care what we're saying about generative AI. Literally told him it's just a glorified autocorrect, and he doesn't care.