how they* feel/think

i can only control myself 🙂‍↕️

it’s nice to accept that though and take what i can learn from those mistakes and use it in my future :’) i can feel bad all i want about how i treated people but that’ll never change how to feel/think about me and it won’t do anything to help me either 😵‍💫 all i can do is do better in the future!!

anyways lil random thought vomit for tn bye bye bluesky

nothing but love for him alway, i wouldn’t have faced myself the way i have the past couple months if not for him (and my 2024 ex 😵‍💫) i wish i was better for him but i did my best with what i knew at the time :( man. love is weird, you can love so many ppl in so many ways at the same time it’s wild

he taught me so much and was genuinely the sweetest man ive ever been with 🥲 he always has a lil bit of my heart for showing me things about myself i didn’t know existed and for being there w me thru a really tough n painful year. we have diff morals/values that i remembered i CANT compromise on

not that any of my friends want me to get back together with him but at the same time they don’t quite get the gravity of the connection we had 😭 i don’t SHARE SHIT ABT MY FEELINGS

(he does NOT im delusional he has a gf)

cause i can’t talk to you right now!!! cause i love you still!!! but i cant love you properly rn so it’s not fair for me to ask you to leave someone if i wont even be able to fully give myself back 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 MAN