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@concaluit-astris.bsky.social
DNI unless i linked you here
Tw for ED, mild suicidal ideation and general mental health shit
Please don't reply if you follow me off of your main (ive unfollowed ppl whos accs arent alt accs)
Me needing one of these concerns me but oh well ;3
Tw for ED, mild suicidal ideation and general mental health shit
Please don't reply if you follow me off of your main (ive unfollowed ppl whos accs arent alt accs)
Me needing one of these concerns me but oh well ;3
I already generally felt so incredibly rejected from my own culture but the new law and ppls response to it just makes all that worse
Im not welcome
And i wont be safe if i ever visit
So i cant
And that hurts, so so much
Im not welcome
And i wont be safe if i ever visit
So i cant
And that hurts, so so much
January 6, 2026 at 9:35 AM
I already generally felt so incredibly rejected from my own culture but the new law and ppls response to it just makes all that worse
Im not welcome
And i wont be safe if i ever visit
So i cant
And that hurts, so so much
Im not welcome
And i wont be safe if i ever visit
So i cant
And that hurts, so so much
Bottom dysphoria is going to kill me dead but i also could Not handle recovering from phalloplasty so thats off the table and i just, dont want metoidioplasty so ill just suffer i guess
December 30, 2025 at 1:00 PM
Bottom dysphoria is going to kill me dead but i also could Not handle recovering from phalloplasty so thats off the table and i just, dont want metoidioplasty so ill just suffer i guess
As if i didn't deal with enough bullshit relating to that within the last week istfg
December 25, 2025 at 12:10 PM
As if i didn't deal with enough bullshit relating to that within the last week istfg
My nipples hurt So Much im going to die actually
December 24, 2025 at 1:13 PM
My nipples hurt So Much im going to die actually
One month post op
Kinda hard to have any feelings or opinions on that bc of the complication im having but also woo ig im closer to getting to be compression vest free??
Kinda hard to have any feelings or opinions on that bc of the complication im having but also woo ig im closer to getting to be compression vest free??
December 10, 2025 at 9:26 AM
One month post op
Kinda hard to have any feelings or opinions on that bc of the complication im having but also woo ig im closer to getting to be compression vest free??
Kinda hard to have any feelings or opinions on that bc of the complication im having but also woo ig im closer to getting to be compression vest free??
Healing updateee
1)a lot of the scabs are falling off and its looking good under those
2)i have a spitting stitch
3)i can wear tshirts again
1)a lot of the scabs are falling off and its looking good under those
2)i have a spitting stitch
3)i can wear tshirts again
December 3, 2025 at 5:13 PM
Healing updateee
1)a lot of the scabs are falling off and its looking good under those
2)i have a spitting stitch
3)i can wear tshirts again
1)a lot of the scabs are falling off and its looking good under those
2)i have a spitting stitch
3)i can wear tshirts again
Found a scar camouflage place in my city and an article explaining everything u need to gt insurance coverage for that
So once im healed enough i think i wanna do that
So once im healed enough i think i wanna do that
November 30, 2025 at 3:10 PM
Found a scar camouflage place in my city and an article explaining everything u need to gt insurance coverage for that
So once im healed enough i think i wanna do that
So once im healed enough i think i wanna do that
Can i please just kill him with my own hands and never have dreams containing him ever again
I wnat to erase his very existence from this world forever
I wnat to erase his very existence from this world forever
November 30, 2025 at 12:35 PM
Can i please just kill him with my own hands and never have dreams containing him ever again
I wnat to erase his very existence from this world forever
I wnat to erase his very existence from this world forever
Nipple scab started to slough off aaaand its pink underneath which means blood supply thank fuck
November 25, 2025 at 11:08 PM
Nipple scab started to slough off aaaand its pink underneath which means blood supply thank fuck
I might he having an allergic reaction to one of the bandages on me rn
Ugh fml
Ugh fml
November 24, 2025 at 1:35 PM
I might he having an allergic reaction to one of the bandages on me rn
Ugh fml
Ugh fml
I need to start increasing my range of motion this week bweh
November 24, 2025 at 12:29 PM
I need to start increasing my range of motion this week bweh
Just got home after getting my sutures pulled
Mmm i wanna eep
Mmm i wanna eep
November 24, 2025 at 9:05 AM
Just got home after getting my sutures pulled
Mmm i wanna eep
Mmm i wanna eep
Im healed enough to finally prop myself up w my hands in bed gods finally
November 22, 2025 at 11:26 AM
Im healed enough to finally prop myself up w my hands in bed gods finally
I think if i ever do end up getting bottom surgery im definitely opting out of scrotoplasty, i just, dont have a need for it
November 20, 2025 at 8:41 AM
I think if i ever do end up getting bottom surgery im definitely opting out of scrotoplasty, i just, dont have a need for it
I ened up taking like, a 10 minute break i think
Me on friday: oh i wont take the daily 1-2 hour allowed breaka from the compression vest ill be fine
Me now, having not taken it off since saturday evening: *crumbles and dies*
Me now, having not taken it off since saturday evening: *crumbles and dies*
November 17, 2025 at 7:23 PM
I ened up taking like, a 10 minute break i think
Me on friday: oh i wont take the daily 1-2 hour allowed breaka from the compression vest ill be fine
Me now, having not taken it off since saturday evening: *crumbles and dies*
Me now, having not taken it off since saturday evening: *crumbles and dies*
November 17, 2025 at 2:17 PM
Me on friday: oh i wont take the daily 1-2 hour allowed breaka from the compression vest ill be fine
Me now, having not taken it off since saturday evening: *crumbles and dies*
Me now, having not taken it off since saturday evening: *crumbles and dies*
Want an energy drink but
Not letting myself have caffeine until at least 6 weeks post op
Not letting myself have caffeine until at least 6 weeks post op
November 17, 2025 at 1:43 PM
Want an energy drink but
Not letting myself have caffeine until at least 6 weeks post op
Not letting myself have caffeine until at least 6 weeks post op
So i was/am overstimulated and kinda, forgot that happens-
Took off the pillow and thats helping, i might end up having to take the breaks im allowed to take from the compression vest after all just to not lose my mind
Took off the pillow and thats helping, i might end up having to take the breaks im allowed to take from the compression vest after all just to not lose my mind
No pain today but i still feel kinda weird ehgh
November 17, 2025 at 9:21 AM
So i was/am overstimulated and kinda, forgot that happens-
Took off the pillow and thats helping, i might end up having to take the breaks im allowed to take from the compression vest after all just to not lose my mind
Took off the pillow and thats helping, i might end up having to take the breaks im allowed to take from the compression vest after all just to not lose my mind
No pain today but i still feel kinda weird ehgh
November 17, 2025 at 7:54 AM
No pain today but i still feel kinda weird ehgh
I am in so much pain but at least ive fighred out where its from
November 16, 2025 at 2:57 PM
I am in so much pain but at least ive fighred out where its from
Woke up in pain
I think i rolled over onto my side while i was asleep
Took painkillers shortly after waking up and i am still in pain
Ended up unbuttoning my shirt because i thought i might be bleeding but nope i seem to be just fine??
I think i rolled over onto my side while i was asleep
Took painkillers shortly after waking up and i am still in pain
Ended up unbuttoning my shirt because i thought i might be bleeding but nope i seem to be just fine??
November 16, 2025 at 11:50 AM
Woke up in pain
I think i rolled over onto my side while i was asleep
Took painkillers shortly after waking up and i am still in pain
Ended up unbuttoning my shirt because i thought i might be bleeding but nope i seem to be just fine??
I think i rolled over onto my side while i was asleep
Took painkillers shortly after waking up and i am still in pain
Ended up unbuttoning my shirt because i thought i might be bleeding but nope i seem to be just fine??
Im, rly not doing well rn
November 15, 2025 at 10:25 PM
Im, rly not doing well rn
Eugh i feel, weird, panicky nausea but only physically
November 15, 2025 at 7:56 PM
Eugh i feel, weird, panicky nausea but only physically
First night sleeping out of the hospital post op was
Not good
I kept sliding down the pillows that i piled up to have an incline and my lower back was flat against the bed and i ended up waking up a lot due to the pain that was causing
Not good
I kept sliding down the pillows that i piled up to have an incline and my lower back was flat against the bed and i ended up waking up a lot due to the pain that was causing
November 15, 2025 at 7:30 AM
First night sleeping out of the hospital post op was
Not good
I kept sliding down the pillows that i piled up to have an incline and my lower back was flat against the bed and i ended up waking up a lot due to the pain that was causing
Not good
I kept sliding down the pillows that i piled up to have an incline and my lower back was flat against the bed and i ended up waking up a lot due to the pain that was causing
Mmm i rly want clean hair
Cant wait to be home
Cant wait to be home
November 14, 2025 at 5:50 PM
Mmm i rly want clean hair
Cant wait to be home
Cant wait to be home