fav fe character prolly either soleil from fates or bernadetta from 3h although yk im repping the edelgard love too. and leif and amelia theyre kind of my non modern picks. amelia because i like trainee units and leif because hes just that guy idk. wish he was better in feh rn

and my character has her own lore and stuff. me and my other 2 friends have a combined canon its a lot of fun. my characters name is Xyracia. if anyone would be interested i could drop some more lore but void screaming is fine to me to idrc

but i picked up machinist for this questline. cant even start it because the first quest is lvl 85 and im still only lvl 81. but i did pretty well for 2 or so weeks of grinding levels. thats like 50 or so levels pretty good imo

maybe if i were to work out itd be different. no not maybe, if i did work out i would see the change i want but keeping that routine is so fucking hard for me. i would legitimately need someone to like help me out irl.

to even call myself a girl. but i want it. so bad. i just.. dont know how to obtain it. i dont know if ill ever obtain it. which fucking sucks obviously! maybe if i had a more twinkish body i could feel more comfortable but i dont. im 5'4 and 165 which is grossly overweight apparently

you help people out. in any way you can but i cant extend the same kindness to myself that i do for others. its harder. i dont even feel like calling myself a lesbian. i feel like i dont deserve it. i dont feel hot enough or like i look like a woman enough to deserve to call myself a lesbian

ive got a name, i go by she/her online but i dont use either of these things in everyday irl life. i dont feel like i deserve to. i feel like by asking somebody to change for me is to burden them. which yknow if someone asked that of me of course i would cause thats just what you do

i dont even feel comfortable with this part of my life. not that i regret it i dont feel like this is the wrong path to go down. i like women i want to be one. i want to be cute and sexy and silly like girls are. but its hard to call myself a girl when i look like.. well what i look like

i dont really like people handling my hair atp. when i was first exploring my identity, i let my hair grow out but my mom forced me to cut it short. shes kind of supportive of me but she doesnt understand (not her fault) and i just cant trust her enough to let her in this aspect of my life

i still wear a hat just incase because my hair will get fucked up at any slight effort i put forth with my body. i dont really have a hair style becuz i just dont feel comfortable having something ive been building up for so long taken away from me.

currently on 100 mg of progesterone, 4 mg of estradiol, 100 mg of spiro, and 5 mg of finasteride. i chose the finasteride for hair growth. my hair is really short on top (balding) but its recently gotten thicker because of everything ive been taking.

virtual insanity even

smh my head

WHAAT??? BE A PRINCESS OR DIE???