All this to say, you can definitely be ok again. Not just some day, but hopefully some day soon.

My first day on a mood stabilizer I felt so much better and was able to actually enjoy drawing again for the first time in months.

After a long day of work/college I used to spend 5 hours laying on the couch feeling so bad I couldn't get up to eat or do anything. At least 3 times per week.
Since starting meds, I've done it less than 1 time per month. And when I did last month, I only spent 2 hours, then I got up and made food.

Yo, about your low mood post: it's very relatable. I have a mood disorder that makes me feel the same way often. Long periods of low mood broken up by shorter periods of better mood. Mood stabilizer meds and therapy have helped me immensely. I def recommend reaching out to a mental health specialist

Honk shooo honk shooo honk mimimimi

You're too real for this. I've been holding myself back from turning on jingle bell rock

Absolutely peak homosexual levels

lol genderfluid but it's weighted dice

Idea for another way to say it if ppl don't understand: genderfluid mostly on the girl side?

I'm sure some ppl won't agree, but I think that label communicates it really clearly all things considered!

Ok I know he’s IT but PROGRAMMER SOCKS????!?!!

Oh oh!! And he could have that thing that specialists have where they’re super smart about their specialty but really stupid about practical things or social situations etc. Like maybe he had no idea about some basic plant thing and someone shows him it and he’s like “no way I thought they just xyz”

Oh hold up u said IT, my b.

Ok I’m back—now not on my Lucius goat account.

So ANYWAYS, I saw u said “tech” and wanted to add that if he is in cyber security he has probably gotten paranoid about it all by now. So he could be like slow to trust someone or somn?

I played anodontosaurus once before. I was born into a big herd in the Dynasty Realism server, and we travelled from the hot springs to snake gully. I got some beautiful screenshots of us travelling

Whatever you do is the right thing to have done, it's totally up to you and you don't owe him anything.

If I were in your shoes, to prevent myself from feeling any guilt, I would go visit him once for like a day and wish him well, and then head home.

Hell yeah! Same!