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I suppose some delusions don't stem from anything and are completely random, or maybe they stem from another seemingly unrelated delusion. I'll probably tire myself out if I try to figure out the reason behind the unreasonable.

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HOWEVER, before going on medication, I believed he was writing songs about me - specifically Someone You Loved & Wish You the Best. Why? I don't know, back then I just believed it.

Now my mind is clear and I'm confused af. I still love his music, but it's definitely NOT about me.

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To preface, I like Lewis Capaldi's music, but I'm not a massive hardcore fan. I've never seen him in concert, never wanted to see him in concert, & I'm frankly not overly bothered about his personal life. Not my business.

Like, he seems like a great & talented guy. That's it.

Thank you! It really sucks but I suppose it's a small price to pay in the long term if it makes recovery/being functional possible. 💜

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In all honesty, I'd prefer the appetite suppressors. It's not necessarily what I'm eating that's the problem, it's that I'm still hungry afterwards regardless of how filling the meal should be.

I just know what they'll think of me if I ask.

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I could ask my psychiatrist if I could be prescribed appetite suppressors, but will he give them to me? Probably not, due to my past diagnosis.

I could calorie count, but will that be more triggering than appetite suppressors? Probably, considering how obsessed I was before.

The Elk: There's some financial stability in your future, as long as you don't get ahead of yourself & make impulsive choices. You must remain humble & focus on building your current career path rather than making drastic decisions that change it or taking offers that seem too good to be true.