I am now entering the phase of grief where I feel overwhelmed by people calling me.
So I don’t answer, and the idea of calling them back gets so built-up in my head, that I just can’t bring myself to do it.
My social tank is empty, but I know it’s good for me to keep people close right now.
So I don’t answer, and the idea of calling them back gets so built-up in my head, that I just can’t bring myself to do it.
My social tank is empty, but I know it’s good for me to keep people close right now.
November 10, 2025 at 10:03 PM
I am now entering the phase of grief where I feel overwhelmed by people calling me.
So I don’t answer, and the idea of calling them back gets so built-up in my head, that I just can’t bring myself to do it.
My social tank is empty, but I know it’s good for me to keep people close right now.
So I don’t answer, and the idea of calling them back gets so built-up in my head, that I just can’t bring myself to do it.
My social tank is empty, but I know it’s good for me to keep people close right now.
I love bed so much
November 10, 2025 at 5:32 AM
I love bed so much
goooood morning!
grab your coffee and join me for a morning science-deep dive. we’re learning about the science of 👻 ghosts 👻 today!
Twitch.tv/Cheebs
grab your coffee and join me for a morning science-deep dive. we’re learning about the science of 👻 ghosts 👻 today!
Twitch.tv/Cheebs
November 9, 2025 at 4:33 PM
goooood morning!
grab your coffee and join me for a morning science-deep dive. we’re learning about the science of 👻 ghosts 👻 today!
Twitch.tv/Cheebs
grab your coffee and join me for a morning science-deep dive. we’re learning about the science of 👻 ghosts 👻 today!
Twitch.tv/Cheebs
Saturday streamin’
Doing a sponsored segment with Sonic Rumble (#ad), and then having a chill evening. Come over here with ya bad self.
Twitch.tv/Cheebs
Doing a sponsored segment with Sonic Rumble (#ad), and then having a chill evening. Come over here with ya bad self.
Twitch.tv/Cheebs
November 8, 2025 at 9:49 PM
Saturday streamin’
Doing a sponsored segment with Sonic Rumble (#ad), and then having a chill evening. Come over here with ya bad self.
Twitch.tv/Cheebs
Doing a sponsored segment with Sonic Rumble (#ad), and then having a chill evening. Come over here with ya bad self.
Twitch.tv/Cheebs
Tonight’s stream was absolutely absurd.
I just can’t seem to find the words for the kindness y’all have given to me over the past few months.
My heart is ow. I’m so grateful. Thank you.
I just can’t seem to find the words for the kindness y’all have given to me over the past few months.
My heart is ow. I’m so grateful. Thank you.
November 8, 2025 at 2:28 AM
Tonight’s stream was absolutely absurd.
I just can’t seem to find the words for the kindness y’all have given to me over the past few months.
My heart is ow. I’m so grateful. Thank you.
I just can’t seem to find the words for the kindness y’all have given to me over the past few months.
My heart is ow. I’m so grateful. Thank you.
No because why am I starting to feel guilty for expressing my grief so openly.
No one’s made me feel bad for doing so.
But it’s been 2 months, yet it feels like I find out for the first time every day. But I feel weird about feeling “stuck”.
No one’s made me feel bad for doing so.
But it’s been 2 months, yet it feels like I find out for the first time every day. But I feel weird about feeling “stuck”.
November 7, 2025 at 7:54 PM
No because why am I starting to feel guilty for expressing my grief so openly.
No one’s made me feel bad for doing so.
But it’s been 2 months, yet it feels like I find out for the first time every day. But I feel weird about feeling “stuck”.
No one’s made me feel bad for doing so.
But it’s been 2 months, yet it feels like I find out for the first time every day. But I feel weird about feeling “stuck”.
Okay, my algorithm on here is showing me a lot of thirst traps of hot, gay men and I’d like to believe it’s my brother showing me a sign.
November 5, 2025 at 12:14 AM
Okay, my algorithm on here is showing me a lot of thirst traps of hot, gay men and I’d like to believe it’s my brother showing me a sign.
November 4, 2025 at 7:41 PM
November 3, 2025 at 9:22 PM
Just really missing my brother today..
I want to say grief is a nasty, awful thing… but I’m try to be compassionate towards it.
To visualize it as a person who needs to be held and comforted. So, I’m sitting with her today. And letting her express the love that remains.
I want to say grief is a nasty, awful thing… but I’m try to be compassionate towards it.
To visualize it as a person who needs to be held and comforted. So, I’m sitting with her today. And letting her express the love that remains.
November 3, 2025 at 12:05 AM
Just really missing my brother today..
I want to say grief is a nasty, awful thing… but I’m try to be compassionate towards it.
To visualize it as a person who needs to be held and comforted. So, I’m sitting with her today. And letting her express the love that remains.
I want to say grief is a nasty, awful thing… but I’m try to be compassionate towards it.
To visualize it as a person who needs to be held and comforted. So, I’m sitting with her today. And letting her express the love that remains.
How do I make sure he’s not getting red-pilled
November 1, 2025 at 9:34 PM
How do I make sure he’s not getting red-pilled
Show me what your pets dressed up as for Halloween right now.
This was my dog a few years ago
This was my dog a few years ago
November 1, 2025 at 5:25 PM
Show me what your pets dressed up as for Halloween right now.
This was my dog a few years ago
This was my dog a few years ago
Today was the longest stream I’ve done since losing my brother.
Most days, I can only manage an hour or two. But today flowed so naturally, and felt like I caught a glimpse of “normalcy”.
And that gives me so much hope.
I love y’all. Thank you for being patient with me. 💛
Most days, I can only manage an hour or two. But today flowed so naturally, and felt like I caught a glimpse of “normalcy”.
And that gives me so much hope.
I love y’all. Thank you for being patient with me. 💛
November 1, 2025 at 1:24 AM
Today was the longest stream I’ve done since losing my brother.
Most days, I can only manage an hour or two. But today flowed so naturally, and felt like I caught a glimpse of “normalcy”.
And that gives me so much hope.
I love y’all. Thank you for being patient with me. 💛
Most days, I can only manage an hour or two. But today flowed so naturally, and felt like I caught a glimpse of “normalcy”.
And that gives me so much hope.
I love y’all. Thank you for being patient with me. 💛
I usually go all out for Halloween on stream , it’s my favorite time of year on Twitch.
But I’ll be real with y’all… holidays are hard for me right now. So today we’re keeping it chill. A cozy Halloween stream, games with friends, and maybe some scary ones later 🎃
But I’ll be real with y’all… holidays are hard for me right now. So today we’re keeping it chill. A cozy Halloween stream, games with friends, and maybe some scary ones later 🎃
October 31, 2025 at 5:38 PM
I usually go all out for Halloween on stream , it’s my favorite time of year on Twitch.
But I’ll be real with y’all… holidays are hard for me right now. So today we’re keeping it chill. A cozy Halloween stream, games with friends, and maybe some scary ones later 🎃
But I’ll be real with y’all… holidays are hard for me right now. So today we’re keeping it chill. A cozy Halloween stream, games with friends, and maybe some scary ones later 🎃
what I’m focusing on over the next year 💕
October 30, 2025 at 6:16 PM
what I’m focusing on over the next year 💕
When I adopted Jake, I didn’t realize how much we’d help each other heal.
His owner had passed away resulting in him being surrendered. Soon after adopting him, my brother passed.
We both lost our people, but we’ve found comfort in each other. I love you, Jakey.
His owner had passed away resulting in him being surrendered. Soon after adopting him, my brother passed.
We both lost our people, but we’ve found comfort in each other. I love you, Jakey.
October 29, 2025 at 9:28 PM
When I adopted Jake, I didn’t realize how much we’d help each other heal.
His owner had passed away resulting in him being surrendered. Soon after adopting him, my brother passed.
We both lost our people, but we’ve found comfort in each other. I love you, Jakey.
His owner had passed away resulting in him being surrendered. Soon after adopting him, my brother passed.
We both lost our people, but we’ve found comfort in each other. I love you, Jakey.
For me, grief feels heaviest in the mornings.
The anxiety upon waking up is almost immediate. Sleep is a brief intermission from reality, and when I wake up, I remember everything.
I hope mornings get easier. 💛
The anxiety upon waking up is almost immediate. Sleep is a brief intermission from reality, and when I wake up, I remember everything.
I hope mornings get easier. 💛
October 29, 2025 at 3:19 PM
For me, grief feels heaviest in the mornings.
The anxiety upon waking up is almost immediate. Sleep is a brief intermission from reality, and when I wake up, I remember everything.
I hope mornings get easier. 💛
The anxiety upon waking up is almost immediate. Sleep is a brief intermission from reality, and when I wake up, I remember everything.
I hope mornings get easier. 💛
We just like… have to keep folding laundry for the rest of our lives and I don’t want to accept that.
October 29, 2025 at 1:40 AM
We just like… have to keep folding laundry for the rest of our lives and I don’t want to accept that.
Okay so here’s the thing
Saying “I’m not racist” as a white person just misses the point.
Being white means benefiting from systems built on racism, regardless of your beliefs or intentions.
And the goal isn’t to deny that, it’s to stay aware of it and DO something about it.
Saying “I’m not racist” as a white person just misses the point.
Being white means benefiting from systems built on racism, regardless of your beliefs or intentions.
And the goal isn’t to deny that, it’s to stay aware of it and DO something about it.
October 26, 2025 at 7:55 PM
Okay so here’s the thing
Saying “I’m not racist” as a white person just misses the point.
Being white means benefiting from systems built on racism, regardless of your beliefs or intentions.
And the goal isn’t to deny that, it’s to stay aware of it and DO something about it.
Saying “I’m not racist” as a white person just misses the point.
Being white means benefiting from systems built on racism, regardless of your beliefs or intentions.
And the goal isn’t to deny that, it’s to stay aware of it and DO something about it.
I have cancelled the holidays this year, just wanted to let y’all know
October 26, 2025 at 6:31 PM
I have cancelled the holidays this year, just wanted to let y’all know
My First Time Hitchhiking! A Night of Solo Camping.
YouTube video by Cheebs
youtu.be
October 25, 2025 at 6:53 PM
nothing hits like the moment you decide to leave a social event
October 14, 2025 at 7:39 PM
nothing hits like the moment you decide to leave a social event
One unexpected thing about grief is realizing how little I’ve cared to check my CCV or viewership over the past month.
I have no idea what the numbers look like, and while I know they matter for us full-time creators, it’s been freeing to let that go for a bit and not care.
I have no idea what the numbers look like, and while I know they matter for us full-time creators, it’s been freeing to let that go for a bit and not care.
October 11, 2025 at 4:59 AM
One unexpected thing about grief is realizing how little I’ve cared to check my CCV or viewership over the past month.
I have no idea what the numbers look like, and while I know they matter for us full-time creators, it’s been freeing to let that go for a bit and not care.
I have no idea what the numbers look like, and while I know they matter for us full-time creators, it’s been freeing to let that go for a bit and not care.
The thing about grief is that you eventually return to ‘normal life,’ but still feel so far from your ‘normal self.’
It’s a terrible feeling. Wanting to be present and enjoy the moment, yet feeling unable to.
It’s a terrible feeling. Wanting to be present and enjoy the moment, yet feeling unable to.
October 2, 2025 at 3:54 PM
The thing about grief is that you eventually return to ‘normal life,’ but still feel so far from your ‘normal self.’
It’s a terrible feeling. Wanting to be present and enjoy the moment, yet feeling unable to.
It’s a terrible feeling. Wanting to be present and enjoy the moment, yet feeling unable to.