But I'm tired of getting up, I just want to stay up. and there have been many points where I didn't want to get back up. I just wanted to give up. I feel so undeserving of love, even after years and years of therapy. and all my friends tell me I am, my family tells me I am. But I can't tell myself.

and it feels like some hedgehog's dilemma shit. I want that connection more than anything. But I don't feel like im allowed or deserving of doing so. I'm just not ready to be loved. or I guess I don't want to be hurt again. But that's a part of life. We get hurt, and we get back up.

and like no one I know follows me here so I don't really give a shit what I say. I just need somewhere to vent. and writing all these things makes me feel like an asshole. But I just want someone to tell me I'm going to be okay. Someone to tell me I'm loved. Someone who could love me.

and I like being alone, but not lonely. Everyone around me is doing amazing things, having life experiences, getting partners. and I feel like I'm left behind. My friends are making more friends and are having deeper connections with them and thats great. but I feel jealous and I hate it.

I still keep trying. Every time I try with someone it never works. and I can't help but wonder that maybe it's something wrong with me. and I want to better myself and I try and I like to think I have. I keep putting this façade of happiness and liking being alone up.

Megatrons with black helmets 🤤

im imagining the one cent is a “dont spend it all in one place” prank you would do to a friend

so mixmaster is just an arm? that’s interesting

are the limbs scramble city style?

IM SO EXCITED TO SEE WEIRD AL BACK IN THE FRANCHISE! I wont be able to un-hear wreck-gar while watching lmao

PABLO 🗣️🗣️🔥🔥 I love pablo representation

The first real comic I ever bought was Nova vol. 4 back in like 2015. Sam Alexander has a special place in my nerdy heart