Thanks 😭 I was going through it that day so thank you for thinking about me

.... Still triggered y'all

These forever feelings are near and dear to my heart and I just love the idea that even if paths move our old little group far apart, something as simple as bringing up an old screenshot will bring us all back like friends at a reunion. Something that'll make us go "hey I remember you".

Remember the Alamo remember the Titans remember who you aRE MAKOTO TACHIBANA

IT'S BEEN 84 YEARS WHY AM I STILL TRIGGERED

WE COULD BE IN COMPLETELY DIFFERENT FANDOMS NOW AND YOU ALL STILL REMEMBER ME AND MY LEVEL OF TRIGGERED I KNOW YOU DO

HOLD ME BACK

Any old friends from Free seeing me triggered will remember that this is EXACTLY the level of triggered I was after that episode and lack of conclusion. Real ones know.

I'm forever triggered by Makoto not swimming competitively and it's always going to be because of the scene in S2 where he hides his tears from Haru after their race and we're just gonna forever ignore that huh my son suffers so much to only be pushed to the side no one even loOK AT ME

Because if I allow myself to think that it isn't the case, that actually, no one would notice if I was gone, then that is a painful and scary feeling that I've been running from for a long time.

I like to think that there's someone out there thinking of me, because I have to hope there is. There are plenty of people that I think of every day, hoping that they're okay and hoping that they have peace. I have to hope that I'm getting that same thought from someone even if I don't know it.

People fear death despite it being an inevitable part of life. I don't fear it, I fear knowing that I loved and cared for others, but it wasn't enough for them to care back. That's all.

I'm gonna go cry some more before I go to the grocery store. Sorry to be a bummer.

I can only hope and pray that one day the tears that haunt me won't be something that I have to shed by myself anymore. I can only hope that people think of me, and remember small things about me, and find things that they think I might like and have them for me the same way I do for them.

All I see are people remembering friends and doing beautiful and kind things for them, and I've never been happier for them, because the people I know and the people I care about really deserve it. But I can't convince myself to believe that I do.

Depression just makes you your own worst enemy.

I'm on vacation and I really just... Got hit so hard with the dark thoughts. They haven't been around in a while, or maybe I've been so good at hiding from them that now that I've had a chance to breathe they finally caught up to me.

Depression and the thoughts they bring are scary.

Holy shit seeing you talk about Free and that fic just brings so many emotions for me. I'm really glad that you still feel those same emotions of love and joy for creating that you did back then. It's been a long time but free has a place in my heart that's permanent. ♥️♥️♥️

Your Free stuff is always a treat because it just reminds me of a simpler time of just enjoying being a young adult 😅 I do have a soft spot for RinMako always but please post whatever you want because seeing your art is always nice.