Honestly, i still believe that Allah will not only save me, but also bless me to meet someone who's in my level. I'm lowkey excited to finally meet him, but at the same time i still processing the break up, and inshaAllah by the end of these year, my life already blessed enough (just like last year)

Omg news flash gurl, my ex just post a pic with his new girl 😔👍🏻 and i didn't even stalked him, he post it for the world to see, and my friend screenshot it and give it to me 😩

I should print your post and hang it in my bedroom so i can't forget to respect myself 🥹 thankyouuu babe i hope you have an amazing day aheadd🤍🤍🤍

That being said, i would really grateful if someone been in an on-off relationship will give me some advice on how i should move on from us and let each other go 🥲

Idk how i will process this, but this is the most clarity i will get from him, and most people don't even have chance to get closure with their ex. I'm just glad that i don't hate him. I'm just glad that i do know some part of him still cares about my well being, and it's more than enough

And that is why making this harder than it should. My logical thinking is wholeheartedly agree to end the relationship because i do know i deserve a commitment, a chance to someone emotionally available to truly loves me without any fear, yet part of me wants him to be the person. My person.

Idk, i always agree with his decision, even ending this. But it's just our emotion sometimes still want to fight for both of us, so even after our decision to part ways, deep down we're still yearning towards another

But man, this anxious-avoidant thingy is so draining, i can't be peaceful without his reassurance, and he will not be at peace if i constantly "nag" him. We want to stay but we can't because of our tendencies and triggers. This is absolute absurd. But then again it's been years, and honestly i agree

Nonetheless i'm glad and grateful he's been in my life. I'm just sad that we have to be apart like this. Maybe my feelings towards him is much more than the other way around, and it's not fair for either of us to stay in a relationship where just one person try to salvage things

It really sucks, but i've been on and off with this guy last year, processing our emotion and logical thinking etc etc

god dammit it hurts, and i can't eat properly for three days bcs my teeth are hurting

Just hoping it won't causing any pain and i'm just going to sleep tonight

I'm from 22 days afterwards and i think it's not that bad... yet? (Funny enough i wrote this whilst waiting for my denstist)

Am i proud of it? Of course not. But sometimes it's so strange to me to just say whatever i want without ovt about it

Oh my gosh i wish they would release it 🥹🥹🥹

But another thing, i already play this family atleast 1 month per year and it's been 7 years from 2020ish? (and 8 generations) this pic taken from gen 7th

I'm still salty about miraculous ladybug season 3 ending that i decided to build a legacy family out of adrienette agreste 😚