thank you, lovely 🩷 i'm sorry you understand but it's nice to know im not crazy and not alone in this feeling as unfortunate as it is to share it :')

learning that selflessness is an actual thing people can AND CHOSE to do was. wild. wdym you dont have some sort of ulterior motive or other desire?

how can any kindness be real, ykno? i obviously know now that it can be, and im still working on it ofc. but im contemplative this morning. its so hard to trust reality when its constantly getting fucked with.

it's so hard to trust my reality and other people while im in this household i stg 😭😭😭

ive already been having a really rough day with my body and just. the constant touching all day has set me off so much more

sorry this is so like. awful to post i just need to get it out somewhere

fifi, torren and kavi (the big 3) are the ones its most prevalent in and a big part of their stories / character.

i give all my most self insert / beloved characters a struggle with reality and/or being unreliable narrators to their own story. it means a lot to me to give this specific flaw to ocs.

microdosing on coffee until i like it

gothler

like. yeah ok. thats def one of my issues. but its not the one i CAME TO YOU FOR. its ok i can work with this for now

what do you MEAN she was right. only a little. im righter tho trust me. /j