Oh god, oh no

It is so crazy how I can do nothing and she still actively villainizes me. Yes, I was preparing to sign the lease for weeks, and I was talking with my landlord, and suddenly one day he said my mother signed it out from under me. Then she spent her job money on it to make me a bad guy. Hmmm.

"ass activity"

A protective order will prevent him from owning a firearm until the order expires, which should be a year or two at least. It's not only about my safety; it would protect him from himself. It's a safe way to have him learn there are consequences for entertaining his delusions, and he should stop.

That is truly frightening. So I got a protective order started a few minutes ago. Like, the poor guy dude, I am homebound with cerebral palsy, and I once gifted him a Mister Rogers DVD. Imagine being that far outside of reality. I feel so bad for him. He's an outstanding composer.

I can't. My mother insults my body for its cerebral palsy clumsiness and also normal things like leg hair. She has driven me out of town and abandoned me with no medication or money or phone charger, twice. But right now she is missing. Nobody deserves to be abandoned, so I will never quit looking.

I have begged my mother via email and voicemails and text messages to tell me she is okay, to please say something, to please respond to somebody, but nothing happens. What am I supposed to conclude here?

Absolutely nobody has heard from my mother and believe me I have had tons of people reach out to try and find her. She's completely vanished. Her husband's phone is on and receiving messages but he won't respond.