i have to keep going, but thought i'd pop in and say happy pride and thinking abt all my moots and lurkers out there, stay safe

positives: lax free for 3 months, i can use the bathroom regularly now, i got my period back (hesitant abt this one...), overall i feel so much happier n have more pleasant conversations with everyone i love, i even aced every class last semester! and i feel sm physically stronger than before

for anyone else on the cusp of thinking about recovery, i'll just say this: i have reached multiple gws since relapsing and i've only now realized that this ed is so fucking evil. it does not care if you are skinny, it just wants you to rot and die. i hope you guys all heal one day, truly.

i would love to keep in touch with all of you but the reality is, i cannot do that without risking the chance of relapse. i'll be logged out indefinitely. this place has definitely been such a safe space for me + i'm so thankful for everyone i've ever interacted with. so so much love for all of you

i guess i should be thankful that i'm vain as hell because excessive bloating was really the trigger for my recovery. what is the point of being bmi 16 if i genuinely look like mr. bobo???? fucking jumpscare fr. it's like all my work was for nothing + i have spent way too much time crying over it

you do not know how jealous i am OMFG need to trade bowels just for one day ... 🙇‍♀️ please ...

"eat regular meals" WHOA WHOA OK ANYTHING BUT THAT!

me during my honeymoon phase vs now where i struggle to not binge every 2 days

"older minors" you are a MINOR period

me. AND gluten free???? amazing

oatmeal loml (broke up w ricecakes)

ok hear me out. Fried foods yummy

giraffespo ♡

wanted to be a lil freaky this morning 😝

why is my waist actually gigantic.