Broken Catgirl's Diary
@catgirldiary.bsky.social
Priv/Vent account for a certain catgirl
If you follow me, you'll be subject to TheFiltering™️
(If I know and trust you'll prolly be fine)
There is a lot of negativity here, though
You've been warned
If you follow me, you'll be subject to TheFiltering™️
(If I know and trust you'll prolly be fine)
There is a lot of negativity here, though
You've been warned
Pinned
If youre seeing this, you prolly know this is my priv.
Know that I dont want to filter my thoughts and feelings here, and that I *will* subpost others here.
So please be careful as there might be posts hurtful to you. Also, dont take anything I say as "intent" or "true" as I'm just venting, okie?
Know that I dont want to filter my thoughts and feelings here, and that I *will* subpost others here.
So please be careful as there might be posts hurtful to you. Also, dont take anything I say as "intent" or "true" as I'm just venting, okie?
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Bpd feelings acting up again??
Fuck off it was better when you were gone again why did you have to return
Bpd feelings acting up again??
Fuck off it was better when you were gone again why did you have to return
November 29, 2025 at 6:50 PM
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Bpd feelings acting up again??
Fuck off it was better when you were gone again why did you have to return
Bpd feelings acting up again??
Fuck off it was better when you were gone again why did you have to return
I'm so fucking pathetic...
November 27, 2025 at 1:47 PM
I'm so fucking pathetic...
I've been so asocial lately and it's been making me very lonely
November 23, 2025 at 5:32 PM
I've been so asocial lately and it's been making me very lonely
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I was right
I never have the ability or charisma or whatever it is that lets people remain friends or be close
If I don't keep trying and trying everyone leaves
So so so very few ppl who actually reach out to me first
Everyone else doesnt give a second thought
I was right
I never have the ability or charisma or whatever it is that lets people remain friends or be close
If I don't keep trying and trying everyone leaves
So so so very few ppl who actually reach out to me first
Everyone else doesnt give a second thought
November 9, 2025 at 7:44 PM
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I was right
I never have the ability or charisma or whatever it is that lets people remain friends or be close
If I don't keep trying and trying everyone leaves
So so so very few ppl who actually reach out to me first
Everyone else doesnt give a second thought
I was right
I never have the ability or charisma or whatever it is that lets people remain friends or be close
If I don't keep trying and trying everyone leaves
So so so very few ppl who actually reach out to me first
Everyone else doesnt give a second thought
I feel like I'm only getting more dumb and mentally disabled with time and clearly T isn't the issue cuz nothing has gotten better or stopped since I started HRT yet
November 2, 2025 at 5:32 PM
I feel like I'm only getting more dumb and mentally disabled with time and clearly T isn't the issue cuz nothing has gotten better or stopped since I started HRT yet
Nothing like a healthy dose of dread to add flavor to every already-stressful step you take in an attempt to reclaim even a sliver of your life
October 20, 2025 at 5:56 PM
Nothing like a healthy dose of dread to add flavor to every already-stressful step you take in an attempt to reclaim even a sliver of your life
Ihatethidihatethisohatethisohatehtisihatethisihatethisihatethisihatethisihayehtjshihatethis
October 20, 2025 at 4:41 PM
Ihatethidihatethisohatethisohatehtisihatethisihatethisihatethisihatethisihayehtjshihatethis
The only noticeable effect hrt has had on me so far is tits
No brainfog going away, no emotions appearing, no will to live returning, nothing but tits
No brainfog going away, no emotions appearing, no will to live returning, nothing but tits
October 19, 2025 at 6:49 PM
The only noticeable effect hrt has had on me so far is tits
No brainfog going away, no emotions appearing, no will to live returning, nothing but tits
No brainfog going away, no emotions appearing, no will to live returning, nothing but tits
I initially wanted to call this account doomed catgirl's diary
Would've been accurate tbh
Would've been accurate tbh
October 19, 2025 at 3:52 PM
I initially wanted to call this account doomed catgirl's diary
Would've been accurate tbh
Would've been accurate tbh
Why why why me why couldn't I have been luckier why did I have to be one of the unlucky ones why did I have to be born into a shithole why did I have to have dunb parents why did I have to be queer why did I have to get so many mental illnesses why did I have to be disabled
October 19, 2025 at 3:20 PM
Why why why me why couldn't I have been luckier why did I have to be one of the unlucky ones why did I have to be born into a shithole why did I have to have dunb parents why did I have to be queer why did I have to get so many mental illnesses why did I have to be disabled
An evolutionary dead end, a genetic defect
October 19, 2025 at 3:13 PM
An evolutionary dead end, a genetic defect
Meant to be in a world better than this but thrown into a shithole I wasn't built for instead
October 19, 2025 at 3:13 PM
Meant to be in a world better than this but thrown into a shithole I wasn't built for instead
Maybe I'm just weak
Maybe I just wasn't fit enough
Maybe I just wasn't fit enough
October 19, 2025 at 3:13 PM
Maybe I'm just weak
Maybe I just wasn't fit enough
Maybe I just wasn't fit enough
I wish all of humanity died so I never have to worry about anything ever again
Cuz I have just enough empathy to hate that there are people even unluckier and worse off than me, I don't understand how some of them even manage to survive or have any semblance of joy or life
Cuz I have just enough empathy to hate that there are people even unluckier and worse off than me, I don't understand how some of them even manage to survive or have any semblance of joy or life
October 19, 2025 at 3:12 PM
I wish all of humanity died so I never have to worry about anything ever again
Cuz I have just enough empathy to hate that there are people even unluckier and worse off than me, I don't understand how some of them even manage to survive or have any semblance of joy or life
Cuz I have just enough empathy to hate that there are people even unluckier and worse off than me, I don't understand how some of them even manage to survive or have any semblance of joy or life
I wish I was never born
October 19, 2025 at 3:11 PM
I wish I was never born
It's hard to believe in any higher being with how lacking proof there is
But sometimes it's hard to be an atheist when it feels like my entire life was made by a malevolent entity for the sole purpose of being tormented and forced to suffer silently for nothing but sick entertainment
But sometimes it's hard to be an atheist when it feels like my entire life was made by a malevolent entity for the sole purpose of being tormented and forced to suffer silently for nothing but sick entertainment
October 19, 2025 at 3:08 PM
It's hard to believe in any higher being with how lacking proof there is
But sometimes it's hard to be an atheist when it feels like my entire life was made by a malevolent entity for the sole purpose of being tormented and forced to suffer silently for nothing but sick entertainment
But sometimes it's hard to be an atheist when it feels like my entire life was made by a malevolent entity for the sole purpose of being tormented and forced to suffer silently for nothing but sick entertainment
I would say my will is breaking but its not like I ever had any to begin with
I want this pain to end why can't I kill myself and get it over with am I not even allowed the smallest mercies??
I want this pain to end why can't I kill myself and get it over with am I not even allowed the smallest mercies??
October 19, 2025 at 3:06 PM
I would say my will is breaking but its not like I ever had any to begin with
I want this pain to end why can't I kill myself and get it over with am I not even allowed the smallest mercies??
I want this pain to end why can't I kill myself and get it over with am I not even allowed the smallest mercies??
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I need hugs
I need hugs
October 17, 2025 at 7:48 PM
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I need hugs
I need hugs
Am I just doomed then, no matter what?
October 4, 2025 at 12:13 PM
Am I just doomed then, no matter what?
I had the golden opportunity to talk to my brother about it just now.
Parents went somewhere, just me and bro, him ironing and me in the room eating.
Still couldn't say it, still couldn't talk.
I really can't do anything...
Parents went somewhere, just me and bro, him ironing and me in the room eating.
Still couldn't say it, still couldn't talk.
I really can't do anything...
October 4, 2025 at 12:09 PM
I had the golden opportunity to talk to my brother about it just now.
Parents went somewhere, just me and bro, him ironing and me in the room eating.
Still couldn't say it, still couldn't talk.
I really can't do anything...
Parents went somewhere, just me and bro, him ironing and me in the room eating.
Still couldn't say it, still couldn't talk.
I really can't do anything...
I STILL haven't been able to tell them about dropping out of uni
Theyre asking when my degree will come
This will all explode so bad in my face and I know I won't be able to handle it at all
Why tf did I have to be disabled from birth in a shithole where noone fucking understands
Theyre asking when my degree will come
This will all explode so bad in my face and I know I won't be able to handle it at all
Why tf did I have to be disabled from birth in a shithole where noone fucking understands
September 27, 2025 at 10:41 AM
I STILL haven't been able to tell them about dropping out of uni
Theyre asking when my degree will come
This will all explode so bad in my face and I know I won't be able to handle it at all
Why tf did I have to be disabled from birth in a shithole where noone fucking understands
Theyre asking when my degree will come
This will all explode so bad in my face and I know I won't be able to handle it at all
Why tf did I have to be disabled from birth in a shithole where noone fucking understands
I absolutely fucking loathe my "family" all theyve done is fail me all my life and blame me for the consequences of THEIR bullshit
And ofc I had to be born fucked in every way so I'm too reliant on them
And ofc I had to be born fucked in every way so I'm too reliant on them
September 21, 2025 at 7:01 PM
I absolutely fucking loathe my "family" all theyve done is fail me all my life and blame me for the consequences of THEIR bullshit
And ofc I had to be born fucked in every way so I'm too reliant on them
And ofc I had to be born fucked in every way so I'm too reliant on them
Everyone drifts away and leaves and if they don't I do it instead
September 20, 2025 at 5:16 PM
Everyone drifts away and leaves and if they don't I do it instead