addendum: i don't know if he spread this rumor but literally NOBODY comes in front of my window rn, i've seen 6-8 people getting in front of it and moving as if there was an invisible barrier and went behind a truck?? WHAT THE HELL IT'S JUST SO FUNNY

at this point im like g4m//bling even if i dont want to

also i didn't realise how much of an impact physical health has on your mind
i was feeling so hopeless 2 weeks ago bc of this 絶交, now i still feel bad about it but i think i can also turn the page and move forward again
it also helps having a good friendship group that cares ofc

i still have my ups and downs (last night i felt horrendous) but i have hope that i can finally feel decent again
i just wish my doctor would actually let me heal from this stuff without leaving me guessing by myself what i could try but yeah...