Cassandra Mierau
@cassie873.bsky.social
Wife and mother of two. Figuring out life. Highly likely to make posts about mental health. Some other stuff perhaps thrown in.
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Cassandra Mierau
@cassie873.bsky.social
· Nov 14
Citizen Soldier - Better Than I Used To Be (Official Lyric Video)
YouTube video by Citizen Soldier
youtu.be
This song is a good reminder that while I wake up each day with mountains to climb and oceans to cross to function, I have made progress. #bipolar #adhd #mentalhealth
So.. conv bake is not the same as conv roast. 7 hrs and counting cooking a 19 pound turkey.. opps. Apparently I am at the age where technology confuses me. When did I get old? Good thing my guests have a sense of humor. #christmas #mentalhealth
December 26, 2025 at 12:48 AM
So.. conv bake is not the same as conv roast. 7 hrs and counting cooking a 19 pound turkey.. opps. Apparently I am at the age where technology confuses me. When did I get old? Good thing my guests have a sense of humor. #christmas #mentalhealth
I've been thinking about 2025. It was the hardest year of my life. Had to recover from an injury, betrayed by someone I trusted, hospitalized for my mental health, lost friendships, 3 people I cared about died. I only cried once, because I always logic away my emotions. #mentalhealth #bipolar
December 17, 2025 at 2:15 PM
I've been thinking about 2025. It was the hardest year of my life. Had to recover from an injury, betrayed by someone I trusted, hospitalized for my mental health, lost friendships, 3 people I cared about died. I only cried once, because I always logic away my emotions. #mentalhealth #bipolar
I let go of the need to correct my 8 year old on how to wrap presents. It was chaos of her folding paper in random ways, taping it all down in odd spots. At the end she proudly declared herself the best wrapper ever. It was more fun this way, not listening to my #anxiety. #mentalhealth #adhd
December 16, 2025 at 1:58 AM
I let go of the need to correct my 8 year old on how to wrap presents. It was chaos of her folding paper in random ways, taping it all down in odd spots. At the end she proudly declared herself the best wrapper ever. It was more fun this way, not listening to my #anxiety. #mentalhealth #adhd
Do you see it?
My dog looks like a heart. ❤️
My dog looks like a heart. ❤️
December 14, 2025 at 5:50 PM
Do you see it?
My dog looks like a heart. ❤️
My dog looks like a heart. ❤️
Today I read "what a privilege it is to outgrow the stuff you once settled for". It is indeed a privilege. Feels uncomfortable at first, gets easier with time.
December 12, 2025 at 4:01 AM
Today I read "what a privilege it is to outgrow the stuff you once settled for". It is indeed a privilege. Feels uncomfortable at first, gets easier with time.
The frustrating thing about #trauma is when I miss the person that harmed me. Or rather, miss the illusion of who they presented themselves to be. I have to remind myself about the awful things they did, that they are better off gone from my life. It is an ongoing process.
December 12, 2025 at 3:03 AM
The frustrating thing about #trauma is when I miss the person that harmed me. Or rather, miss the illusion of who they presented themselves to be. I have to remind myself about the awful things they did, that they are better off gone from my life. It is an ongoing process.
Sometimes work feels a bit much. Like, I know it has been hours since I was there. But pretty soon I am waking up to do it again. Don't get me wrong, I like my job. Sometimes I just don't feel mentally ready to go. #mentalhealth #bipolar #adhd
December 11, 2025 at 3:36 AM
Sometimes work feels a bit much. Like, I know it has been hours since I was there. But pretty soon I am waking up to do it again. Don't get me wrong, I like my job. Sometimes I just don't feel mentally ready to go. #mentalhealth #bipolar #adhd
Not recommended for me to drink because of my meds (although it doesn't mean I can't on a rare occasion). But I do sometimes buy alcohol free #beer. #Corona zero alcohol is pretty good. What is your fav #non-alcoholicbeer? #bipolar
December 10, 2025 at 3:33 AM
Not recommended for me to drink because of my meds (although it doesn't mean I can't on a rare occasion). But I do sometimes buy alcohol free #beer. #Corona zero alcohol is pretty good. What is your fav #non-alcoholicbeer? #bipolar
My mood lately has been decent. Maybe even in the normal range, though I am not the best judge of that. I feel things, just not as dramatically. Which is great to avoid the lows. It is mostly good for avoiding the damaging highs as well, except for missing the blissful feeling it can bring. #bipolar
December 10, 2025 at 2:56 AM
My mood lately has been decent. Maybe even in the normal range, though I am not the best judge of that. I feel things, just not as dramatically. Which is great to avoid the lows. It is mostly good for avoiding the damaging highs as well, except for missing the blissful feeling it can bring. #bipolar
Sometimes I think about the stuff that has happened to me, the bad things. And they often don't feel real. Like it is hard to sit with knowing "yeah that messed up thing did happen". It is easier to pretend it didn't, the majority of the time just to get through life. #trauma #bipolar #mentalhealth
December 10, 2025 at 2:42 AM
Sometimes I think about the stuff that has happened to me, the bad things. And they often don't feel real. Like it is hard to sit with knowing "yeah that messed up thing did happen". It is easier to pretend it didn't, the majority of the time just to get through life. #trauma #bipolar #mentalhealth
Having to overcome a lifetime of different forms of #abuse is something some are lucky to not understand. Citizen Soldier helps me deal with so many things. Check them out. #mentalhealth #citizensoldier #trauma
Citizen Soldier - The Cage (Official Lyric Video)
YouTube video by Citizen Soldier
youtu.be
December 8, 2025 at 4:54 AM
Having to overcome a lifetime of different forms of #abuse is something some are lucky to not understand. Citizen Soldier helps me deal with so many things. Check them out. #mentalhealth #citizensoldier #trauma
My mood has been decent in the last week. I am worried about my stability though because someone I care about deeply is dying, and it will happen soon. Right now I am doing my automatic "don't feel it" protective response. I know that isn't healthy, but I don't know how to safely feel it. #bipolar
November 29, 2025 at 6:39 PM
My mood has been decent in the last week. I am worried about my stability though because someone I care about deeply is dying, and it will happen soon. Right now I am doing my automatic "don't feel it" protective response. I know that isn't healthy, but I don't know how to safely feel it. #bipolar
This all speaks to me.
November 24, 2025 at 2:25 AM
This all speaks to me.
Reposted by Cassandra Mierau
Trauma doesn’t disappear just because time passes.
Many people believe they “should be over it by now,” but trauma lives in the nervous system, not the calendar. Healing often requires going deeper, not pushing harder.
Many people believe they “should be over it by now,” but trauma lives in the nervous system, not the calendar. Healing often requires going deeper, not pushing harder.
November 24, 2025 at 1:47 AM
Trauma doesn’t disappear just because time passes.
Many people believe they “should be over it by now,” but trauma lives in the nervous system, not the calendar. Healing often requires going deeper, not pushing harder.
Many people believe they “should be over it by now,” but trauma lives in the nervous system, not the calendar. Healing often requires going deeper, not pushing harder.
I struggled to understand why I often couldn't do things. I came across a video about #ADHD. I now could describe what was happening to me: executive dysfunction. My dr missed it even though I was describing what was happening to me: being unable to move nor speak at times even though I wanted to.
November 23, 2025 at 2:50 AM
I struggled to understand why I often couldn't do things. I came across a video about #ADHD. I now could describe what was happening to me: executive dysfunction. My dr missed it even though I was describing what was happening to me: being unable to move nor speak at times even though I wanted to.
The invisible nature of mental health struggles, added to my attempts to "fit in", often give people around me the illusion that I am fine. Right now, I have more struggle days than good. I'd like to think that one day it will change, but I really don't know. #bipolar #ADHD #Trauma #mentalhealth
November 23, 2025 at 2:35 AM
The invisible nature of mental health struggles, added to my attempts to "fit in", often give people around me the illusion that I am fine. Right now, I have more struggle days than good. I'd like to think that one day it will change, but I really don't know. #bipolar #ADHD #Trauma #mentalhealth
At times, I think about the reality that #bipolar is a severe mental illness. It went largely unchecked with me until 9 months ago with diagnosis at 35 years old. I still self-gaslight (learned behaviour from others minimizing) that it isn't that bad. But yeah, it really is a serious illness.
November 19, 2025 at 4:34 AM
At times, I think about the reality that #bipolar is a severe mental illness. It went largely unchecked with me until 9 months ago with diagnosis at 35 years old. I still self-gaslight (learned behaviour from others minimizing) that it isn't that bad. But yeah, it really is a serious illness.
I am questioning my decisions lately as I feel a bit hypomanic. I don't know if I am making bad ones or if I am fine. I am unsure if I can judge that accurately or not, because I know it is possible for me to see things distorted. The uncertainty is hard. #bipolar
November 19, 2025 at 3:11 AM
I am questioning my decisions lately as I feel a bit hypomanic. I don't know if I am making bad ones or if I am fine. I am unsure if I can judge that accurately or not, because I know it is possible for me to see things distorted. The uncertainty is hard. #bipolar
Last night I went to bed about 11 (later than my usual 8-9) and woke up typical time for me at just after 6 am. Welp it is currently 12:30am.. so 18hrs later and I feel energized. I had a good day today. I'm suspicious. #bipolar
November 17, 2025 at 7:29 AM
Last night I went to bed about 11 (later than my usual 8-9) and woke up typical time for me at just after 6 am. Welp it is currently 12:30am.. so 18hrs later and I feel energized. I had a good day today. I'm suspicious. #bipolar
This song is a good reminder that while I wake up each day with mountains to climb and oceans to cross to function, I have made progress. #bipolar #adhd #mentalhealth
Citizen Soldier - Better Than I Used To Be (Official Lyric Video)
YouTube video by Citizen Soldier
youtu.be
November 14, 2025 at 1:39 AM
This song is a good reminder that while I wake up each day with mountains to climb and oceans to cross to function, I have made progress. #bipolar #adhd #mentalhealth
Fun morning with what I can describe as "emotionally raw" for no particular reason because #bipolar. Deep sadness/ sensitivity like something awful just happened, but all I did was wake up. Awful start to the day, not setting me up to be productive.
November 13, 2025 at 4:30 PM
Fun morning with what I can describe as "emotionally raw" for no particular reason because #bipolar. Deep sadness/ sensitivity like something awful just happened, but all I did was wake up. Awful start to the day, not setting me up to be productive.