I popped back and it was a shock. Elon and Trump are just ridiculous, I have no other words. The rest of the feed was haters of megan and harry, I soon realised why I hadn't logged for a while. Who needs that much negativity. Even in the last 6 months it has reached new lows.

I totally get this, an overwhelming loss. Talk aloud and tell him, write him a letter. It can help to get those conversations out some how. Imagine the jokes and find something to smile for, he is still your dad. I wish you better days ahead

Wow that's some commitment to find over 3hours a day during the week.
I work all different shifts but stick to badminton twice a week, it's my stress relief, and bit of socialising without too much socialising if that makes sense.

I'm really liking the nice paul, who shows compassion, I don't think he'll be around for long though.

Could you make them into a book to have forever with your favourite photos to share with your family, precious memories to treasure

Sorry you are going through this. Everyone will give advice but it doesn't mean you should take it. Time to be selfish and prioritise what you need. Do what works for you.
It's an awful place to be but you are not alone, went through this in August and still trying to work out my next direction.