The migraine meds I took in high school that I know work the insurance won't cover because I haven't tried other meds that they also won't cover so it's an endless cycle of medications not being covered by insurance because they want me on something cheaper that we aren't sure will work

Went to get adhd meds and got put on a mood stabilizer instead. That was a bit of a shock to the system.

Found myself repeating old habits.
Being withdrawn and lacking real emotions.
Acting the way I should when I need to.
But I've noticed more slip ups.
Not being able to hold my smile as long.
And crying on the way home.
It's getting harder to rebuild that wall.
I still need that wall.
I'm not ready.